Sunday

semester break...suppose to be a realxing time for me, stayin in the best condition ever cuz spending time with my old frens and my family is wad i have to do right now...but...i stil can feel the emptiness rite now...am i expecting to much or hopin to get sumtin in return?? or im not doin my part like wad u required? a talk or a text would do...not even a minute? it does affect my emotion for the whole day...

woke up around 11 in the morning and the very first thing that comes to my mind is to check my cel...nothing in it...no text nor misscal...sigh~~but luckily mum and dad did acc me for the whole afternoon...like usual when im stil living in sandakan, breakfast, groceries shoppin and tea time..haha..talk a lot and made some funny conversations about affair...hahahaha

somebody called ah 4!! expecting to be de person i thought of but.......who de hell tat called?? Mr Billy Ng...haha..ask me to acc him 4 his brunch as he only woke up around 4 sumtin..omg..wad a lucky guy...haha..sat around and chat til we laugh like hell again..haha..luv talkin cock with him...

finally....movie screening!! but guess wut...i swear i wont step into Sandakan's cinema anymore!! the theater stinks so much!!...got bitten by mosquitoes (for the very first time)...uncivilised people chattin loudly in the cinema and it was freaking hot!! omg..it is the worst cinema ever!!

haha..move on to supper with all of them...haven seen them like ages like, Kelvin and Elix...jus came back from Sarawak...haha..glad to c u guys again...thought of goin home after supper but billy asked me to acc him until 3 as he wil start workin on 3..wad a weird time...so went to a cyber cafe and played a game of dota..haha

been a tired day..damn...gonna take a long rest after this...so chiaozzzz

It was just another day

haha....stil, my own bed really made me buried in it..don feel like waking up when i looked at the clock showing me it 12.03pm...haha...just another ordinary day for me...but managed to get a hair cut around 2pm...

guess wut..it has been de longest period in my period to have a haircut....it took me nearly 4 hours to have my hair done...it was not crowded but....haha..my lady in life spent most of the time with the hairstylist....who is that important woman?? MY MUM...hehe..we went to have a haircut together but her hair too nearly 3 hours to get it done..omg...made de shortest cut ever...i cant believe i have the guts to cut it 'that' short...haha..but kinda like it...not completely done yet..so tomorrow stil nid to get back to the barber shop and finish the left over...will take some pics tomorrow...haha

when it comes to night...i have to look after myself as dad and mum need to attend their fren's wedding dinner...wad bout my sis?? oh yes...wedding dinner as well...made me nid to look for my own dinner...luckily i stil hav some besties here...Mr Billy Ng..my company of the whole nite..haha..had our dinner, a few games of billiard and continue with our yamcha session...

i just reached home and it is time for bed....gonna get my hair done again...hehe...show u some pic of me next time...new hairstly again...the shortest ever..haha..nite nite

Semester Break

Semester break can be relaxing and depressing as well...haha...relaxing in terms of...sleeping all day long without any task that you must do...but depressing when the person u wanted to contact the most is missing in action...haha...hmph~~ it is time to get myself in a great shape as...my age starting with de digit 2*..damn im old..haha..need to prepare myself for the coming stage in my life...will be no longer a student life for sure...gosh im worried...

Tried out tennis today and guess wut...it is harder than i thought...it is totally different from wad i expected...badminton couldnt be applied in tennis but i did and hurted myself..damn..hurt my wrist and fell down bcuz of the slippery surface...ouch~! another day without any plans....

starting to miss my baby limeless so much...i bet she is sleeping for the whole day...haha...wad a pig...hmph~ i think tats de end for today...gonna sleep real soon...keep myself in de best condition ever...haha..alrite..will update my blog for sure..

*sorry for the boring blog again..will add some pic in de coming blog*

I MISS U BABEYY~!!!!!!! :(

My apology

Not feeling so well today as i felt feverish...woke up around 12 and started missing my lime-less edy...wish you were here with me at that time...hehe...then wandered around my room and facebook of course...but i really cant stand it anymore after a few mins staring at the com...its freezing and i can feel the pain in my throat...its really killing me...texted my baby around 1.40pm...told her that im awake and about my health condition...she was having her facial but she replied..tellin me to look after myself...baby so sweet~~...haha...i replied but....sending failed...cuz my cel out of credit...haha..and that time it was raining like cats and dogs outside..so couldn't reload my cel..damn..so took my nap and only woke up around 5...a few missed calls from lime-less...at that very moment i was happy to know that she called...

After a few minutes she called again...haha...finally...our very first conversation of the day...but guess what did she say once i pick up...she was worried and angry for not replying her text msg earlier...oh my god...this is my very first time making my baby angry...scared of course cuz she sounds like killing me, in a soft way..haha...but i felt happy too cuz she really care about me...wuahahaha...but i know i've done something wrong..so i keep on saying sorry...kekeke...know u wont b angry for long..

i cant believe i would cam whore and post it out!!...but i hope it does make u feel better...hehe

I just want to let u know that i feel grateful because i do mean a lot to you...although i made u angry today but it proves that you do care about me so so much...haha...i promise i wont do it again alrite??...will be a responsible 'shit' like what u want me to be...keke...i am so happy to hav u here baby....and i willing to take the punishment...sigh~~...its like killing me for not meeting you for 1 day...but i did make you worried...hehe..besides that i know u do listen to me as u wan me to feel secure but sometimes ur jokes are...hehe..over the limitation...from the very first day i've promised to us that i will work things out to form a better life for us...i wont simply made any commitments if i don mean it...hehe...and u know i want you to stay with me all the time..thats why i don wana make a single thing that will make u unhappy k???...hehe...so took a few pics of myself..hopefully it will make u feel better...haha..love ya baby~!!

My love story..just for you

It has been the best week ever...Last sunday until today...it was jus a few days but it was like years for me...would love to say thank you to God as time passes very slow when i was with my Lime-less...but everybody gets greedy when it comes to happiness right??...wish it would be infinity...i can't believe she would ever given me such a strong feeling...pursuasive and the most unbelievable thing is...she could control my temper!!...haha..what a suprised...i cant even control my own but she could...just a smile from her my temper will fade away...Cyprian Justin Lee has the confirmation again...nobody can ever made me turn into somebody else but my Miss Lime-less...glad to have you in my life baby...

Had fun in this whole week and we manage to understand each other a little bit more...haha..glad to know that you willing to sacrifice so many things for me...haha...i felt touched when u traveled all the way from Sunway to Nilai all by yourselves just to meet up...omg...believe me..i will appreciate our love so much...although there was a few discussion that made us nearly turn our heads back but im glad you would choose to go forward with me...i will never give you any disappointments...promise...as i believe in you and myself...i swear that forever from today...no one will ever take your place...i believe our love will last always...anything can happen if you just believe in our relationship...ok??

i never believe in miracle...as i think you need to work things out n put so much effort to make things become a miracle...but not until the day u agreed...its like a miracle for me...you know how do i look like at that time and until now..i cant even accept it...it is so...unbelievable..haha..Linda Koh Siew Hui is willing to give me a chance to be somebody to her...hahaha...my purpose of writting this blog is not trying to let everybody knows that i hav a girlfriend or wut...it is my proof to you that i want everybody to be the witnesses towards my love for ya...our commitments will stuck and it is sealed in my heart...there is not more loneliness but aloneness...aloneness of our world...im very grateful with our aloneness..once again...thanks baby...you will always be the one...de only one...love ya

this is how the story goes...

We had our very first conversation when i was facing some difficulties in my previous relationship...haha...had fun talking with ya as both of us love to crap alot...admit tat u luv my crap too!...keke..after our very first conversation in Msn...then we moved it to phone...its like every night..EVERY NIGHT!!...haha...then keep on crapping and teasing but...i luv all those craps n teases..haha..i've saved every conversations between us just for the sake of appreciation...i would listen all the conversations all over again when im free...i jus wont get bored of it...as it is something like 'energy booster'??...haha...abnormal ey??...haha..then move on to sending pics and video called..haha...had so so much fun....

then came to our first meet up...was so so anxious at that time..u told me u will 'zo zo' in front of me but...i don felt so..haha..u act naturally and just yourselves...at that very moment i can felt that your the one...but i din rush in this relationship..jus wish i can leave it goes on naturally...haha

finally....on the 17th of Aug 2009...she agreed to be my the other half...in a way of forcing..as she wants me to take initiative to tell her..damn anxious and i was fooled!!...hahaha...my hand sweating like hell...haha..but im glad that i've told her..then we had our very first step together on that day...hahaha...


from that day onwards we stayed side by side like almost everyday..haha..followed her to class then get back to our room in Nilai and Sunway..keke..sweetttt~!!!..muackss...here r some pics of us....

Luvya Baby Lime-less!!

17th of Aug 2009

Finally...everything comes to an end...cuz she agreed!!!...haha..really finally...she understands wad i've been trying to do all the time...haha..but i really got fooled...fooled by her as she pretends she doesnt know anything..omg..cant believe i would fall for that..haha..let me tel lya de whole story....

17th of Aug 09, falls on Mon..we went to Midvalley for a meet up again...i showed up sharp at 12...but.....she managed to show herself at 12.20pm...suppose to be angry but i did not once i look at de impression on her face..haha..showing me her pity pity impression again..haha..damn..always fall for that...haha..then had a walk all around Midvalley and The Garden....we make ourselves comfortable and as if it was our house...talk so damn loud and keep on laughing like nobody's business...haha...went to eat sushi and it taste...erm...nice??...but she likes it..haha

having our lunch in The Garden

then we went to watch a movie called 'The Proposal' ...haha...smelled something fishy as she wana watch this movie...hmph~~...suspecting something at that time...haha..it was a nice movie but we manage to talk more than wathing the whole movie..keep on peeking each other to make sure both of us r not asleep...haha..cuz if one of us fall asleep, the other will giv a very huge slap in the face as a wake up call..kekeke..so we're not dare to sleep although we r so tired..keke..it has been a very tiring day but we had fun...then she followed me to Nilai..on the journey to Nilai...she kept on forcing me to tell her wad is my prob or wut...she knows but she stil act in front of me..ahahah..funny her....and because of that we missed the junction to Nilai and need to take a U turn in SEREMBAN!!

Forcing me to tell her something..haha

Finally...we reached Nilai and.....we confessed to each other and...hahaha...a new relationships has formed...haha..thanks Lime-less...cant believe this is happening to me..both of us r so excited...haha..anyway..we willl stil keep our commitments for sure...haha..so...that the end i think...n thanks 4 everyboyds wishes and support...thanks..

One step ahead

Cyprian Justin Lee is having a great great time now especially at night...I love night time very much because...Miss Lime-less will be free...and at that moment is my very best time although its just a phone call or video call in Msn...I can admit that it has been a rountine in my life when it comes to night...naturally i will get your text msg or call and i might check on her whether she has reached home or wad...it is a part of my life now in looking after that Lime...haha...had a very meaningful conversation last night...telling each other about our personality and what do you feel towards our personality...haha...and probably indirectly spoken something that will make both of us happy or blush...can b considered the truth towards each other...

But as you know..she is kinda stupid to get the truth when it is spoken indirectly..she is more on straight forward kinda type =.=' ...i think she is not that really stupid until i need to say things clearly and make a huge announcement towards it...u did your part and i did mine too...as u know i love things to go naturally rite??...haha...but i am glad that u did your part...u understand my character and personality...u can sense most of the things although i hav never told you before..proud of you Ms Lime-less!!..haha

Happy we had the talk last night...finally..it was a very meaningful conversation that really boost me up...haha..will work hard for sure!!..promise k? and i really appreciate at what u hav done during my exam...as you know i need to talk to you before i enter the exam hall and u never disappoint me...stay awake early in the morning just to wait for my call although it was just a few minutes talk...or can put it in de other way round..probably u haven slept yet at tat time..wuahahaha...but stil...thanks a lot...felt better when talking to ya...

I know sometime i may doubt you even you are tellin me the truth but since 8th of Aug 2009...we had tied up to our promises and commitments...from that day onwards i will believe ever words that come out from your mouth..but sometimes just wana tease ya or wut thats why i may called u as a FAKER but her pronounciation is (FARK-KER)...haha..im just joking by de way...hahahaha...glad to have you in my life now...looking forward to see u...and you know i am missing you badly...

some funny picture of Ms Lime-less:

your favourite pose rite??...haha

haha..ate too much bread and u made urself look so chubby in the cheek..keke


u told me u look thin in this pic...but...u know...hiak!!


u look thin in this pic!!..wuahahah


your very first sales...RM 117...proud of you!!..haha

A night of disappointment and happiness

Had the most peculiar day in de year of 2009...haha...like usual...on de phone with Miss Lime-less but our conversation was kinda awkward when suddenly somebody called her...and that person meant a lot to her in de past...he called..askin for help..although she rejected but i can feel that there is something bothering her...

Had a long talk wif her and suddenly...she said something unacceptable and LIT MY FIRE ON!!...but you know...cant really get angry with her when she sounds like a helpless rabbit that needed help so much...sigh~...lower down my tone and advised her...but as time goes by....that very cute and adorable rabbit TURNS INTO A TIGRESS..DAMN~~!!!

keep on saying something hurtful and probably she does not realise it hurts but she jus keeps it going..oh my god..at that very moment i was so so disappointed with the way she defends herself as she thinks there is nothing wrong or wut...but luckily.......she manage to cool me down and keep on lowering her voice as she knows im angry....rite Miss Lime-less??

haha...tried so hard to keep her happy and removed all the negative thoughts of her...a few hours time hav been used but managed to discard a lil bit of it...and i was full of anger with disappointments...as she never understand wad im tellin her..AAAHHHH~~!!

guess wut...stop our conversation verbally and changed to text msgs...haha...jus a few mins and a few text msgs of her....she cheered me up and demolish all my anger....curious bout wad did she say in the text msg ey??...haha...not gona tel u guys as its kinda private but u can sense it as i've already used de word 'demolish'...sounds persuasive but it reli does...haha...neway...thanks 4 being so patience alrite??..u know im kinda bad tempered but u stil manage to shed my tempered away..wad a suprised...haha...anyway she is Miss Lime-less...

some of my favourite pics of her....

MA FAVOURITE~~!!!..HAHA

*Promises were made and i will chop your head off if u break those promises..haha..u may chop mine as well if i break them..haha*

My own box of excitement and happiness

hey hey..im back to bloging..hem...feel like sharing my current life now...jus a week time before my final..my last 2 papers to move on..haha..hope everything will be fine..did study for it...but u know..im suck in my calculations...haha..i will try my best for sure..of course..

i can say that im living in my own box tat fill me with excitement and hapiness...haha..dono why i jus like my current life now..did nothing much but keep on facebook-ing and of course crapping with Miss Lime-less..that is the name she had given to herself...she managed to cheer me up when i was in a bad condition...all her lame and stupid jokes jus make me to put aside my problems..then when time goes longer and we manage to know each other for a lil bit more...we kinda share things in common especially in relationships...both of us r such a failure in relationships...but she did her very very best as a great girlfriend but the thing is nobody does appreciate her...pity her...and i was totally the other way round of her...haha..to my suprise i dono she would ever face such a thing..so i can say that we did share things in common..lots of funny experience we had been through although its jus a few weeks time...

we..or probably say 'she' came out with lots of stuff like:

Lime-less (impolite)

Kopi sai (thats me..Sai is my name n de kopi means Copy as she thinks that i luv to copy her pattern)

HANG HOOI~~!!..HAHAH (in cantonese..get de hell out of here!!..haha)

conversation recorded and...'eh..i knw u record our conversation again'..haha

cantonese lecture..(im de lecturer of course)

OA..orang asli..duh..(very obvious...ur can b called as OA wut Pontian Kia~~!)

Cam whore~!! (bored?...cam whore de whole day..215 pics man!!)

web cam n video call....funny~~!!! (haha...metal, pig n de last thing...FARK!..de international sign..haha)

ding ding dong dong (stupid..bodoh)

diarrhoea (hahahah..tis is funny...Boss- lou sai)


and many more.....haha...she is jus so funny and i would like to say thanks...thank you so so much..u were there when im facing probs and so on...n i did my part to help ya as i know how u felt as i've tried it be4..hahaha...jus feel happy when ur here wif me..crapping and bullshits almost of everything...hahahha...n those pics tat u sent when i was so damn moody..reli cheer me up..cuz u purposely took a very pic of urs to cheer me up...thanks 4 it..appreciate it..haha..thanks Miss Lime-less!!

Some of my Masterpiece

THANKS MISS LIME-LESS~~!!!..HAHAHA..KNW U GONNA KILL ME AFTER U SEE THIS POST!!..WUAHAHA

Pranky Nite

wow...it has been a very fun n exciting nite...alrite...i got punk'd..haha...here how de story goes...

dono y i feel like being alone 2day so called up to her n told her i wana hav my private time..same goes on n on she keeps on askin y...n as u know im kinda bad tempered so raised up my voice a lil bit on de fon wif her...finally...she leave me alone...so i keep on fb-ing n around 11 sumtin...sum1 called...

a fren of her called- Cyprian..where ru??...ester got bumped by a car and she is having a serious injury now n sent to a hospital called Ampang Puteri Hospital and nid to b operated...

i was like....wtf....in my mind at tat very moment how can things can happen easily???..i din reli trust at tat moment..so having a clear thought i talk to her fren...

ester's fren- wad'd u done to her??...y she is so upset n ran out of her house after reading ur blog??

come on...if u wana know y don u read my blog then??..i told her...n things goes on n on...her ex called...tellin to b careful and he gonna make me pay 4 tis incident...at tat time im goin to take a hand cream as u know im 'ALLERGIC TO BULLSHITS'...haha..din reli care wad did he say...

but their acting reli scares me as they sound so serious...luckily sum1 came to help..guess who she is...hahaa..SHIN HUI is de saviour of the day!!...thansk to her..she has done me a big favour..googled every hospitals in ampang and sent it to me through text msg..haha...of course i wanted to find out the truth so i called every hospitals to look 4 her record...guess wut...no record of hers in all de hospitals tat i've called!!..wow!!

ester's fren n ex- she nid an operation as her injury is very serious and a large amount of blood type O needed...

wtf.....is a patient is having an operation in a hospital....there wont b any record in tat hospital??? sounds stupid rite???...haha...but stil..i put my trust in her til i confirm everytin...called those hospitals again and ask 4 de recent patient tat were sent 2 hours ago...not even a case tat matches her situation...n tat very moment i feel like killing sum1...alrite i got punk'd

made my final decision...change my status in facebook without giving her a notice...CYPRIAN JUSTIN LEE IS SINGLE AND AVAILABLE AGAIN....been a tiring nite...but fun when u achieved de victory in ur hand...,haha...as if like im playing games..haha...

how can a adult hav these kinda thoughts anyway??...told her and her frens not to treat me as a kid as im younger than them...im not stupid k??...told u 4 hundred time...IM NOT STUPID!!!..u guys r like even younger than me in mind....haih...disappointment of course..cant believe i would fall for tat...but i can find out de truth in a glimpse of eyes..haha..im not so stupid and naif anyway...

Ps: know u gonna read my blog..tis msg is for u...don b a jerk next time...u wana get her back??...do it legally...now i've released her but stil..she wont get back to ya...darn

My life in hell

i dono y relationships keep on bothering me..im not only saying bout love of course...jus made me living in hell now...damn damn damn...rather lock myself in de room...instead of goin out wif lots of 'rifle, arrow, bomb, anytin sharp' that wil fly towards me...do i look like a target 4 u guys??..dono y...born to hav those faces i think...haha..wadever..not reli important anyway..


sigh~~..being emo these few days...im not sure wad'd happened but i know..sumtin hav happened..i jus don wana make it explosive...but im not sure whether that prob reli exist or not...haha...complicated ey??..its reli confusing as well but it does ruin my day...i've told myself that my next relationship would b de last for me...but...i tried n tried n tried..its jus doesnt feel de right way..i dono why..so i keep on askin myself..r u stil here wif me??..i can definitely say no...its jus sumtimes being emo when i had a lil alcoholic drink...haha...but i know ur not the main prob..

***Shy yi...i reli wana say thank you for being understanding and giving me a chance to release all my stress...im relieved...i dono y u wil pop out everytime when im havin my worst time...as if u know im in a very very bad condition...i was so touched tat even ur in UK or US or where ever u r..u wil stil find ur very best way to keep contact wif me..oh my god...when i pick up ur fon i was like...finally...sum1 is here for me...u wont make feel tat im an ass...although everybody does think like tat..u wil only make me laugh n smile n being crazy...haha..spending a great time wif ya only on de fon...wish u were here wif me n observe my farking life im into now...pls pls pls...come back earlier n do take care of urself ya...only u can make me smile...thanks 4 de cal....missya***


hem...wad is the prob anyway??..being with sumbody tat u don reli luv...i got it..tats the main thing...wads happening to me??..i've keep on making wrong decisions after that incident...1stly...a gurl tat i know from a club..not those kinda club but a club or society in inti...manage to get well wif her..but ended up...shes not de 1...darn..nvm...

then another gurl...like wad u guys called her as Miss N...kinda work things out but...stil...shes jus being too much of herself...everytin in her ways 'ONLY'..n she thinks that shes dominating de relationship..alrite...u dono who ru messing wif young lady...finally ur turn...u gave me alot of comfort n i know u understand me alot...trying to b de best of all...but wad i felt...

i don like to date wif my mobile......

i don like to b disturbed in a few hours time....keep on callin n callin!!!

i don like to b informed of wad my gf is up to...y cant u tel me?? (ur housemates, ur ex, ur fans, wtf!)

i don like u to keep on thinkin nonsense stuff cuz of 'i din pick up de fon'

i don like 'oh..im in nilai edy'...after a few mins...'ohh im on my way back'
come on..its like very obvious......don lie to me

i don like 'oh ya...i can b considered a pretty so do watch over me in case sumbody grab me away from ya'...my god...

if a person reli luvs sum1..im sure he or she wil tolerate n try to work things out...rite??..probs wil b solved instead of throwing it aside or wut...but for me..i find it reli reli IRRITATING AND ANNOYING!!!!!!....U REMIND ME OF SUM1 THAT GAVE ME THOSE FEELIN BUT AT LEAST SHE BETTER...

i've never felt so so...................AAAHHHHH~!!!!.......
not de time yet to involve myself in any relationship...

but it jus keep on coming!!!...hahaha..not trying to say anytin but...it reli does...haha...we'll c who wil b de next then...hehehe

ps: soli guys...i dono wad kinda of deco or pics should i put in a post..bare wif me..wont come out wif a 'fully word' post again...promise..hehehe

U recalled my memories

it has been a relaxing day..doin de same thing everyday...but when it comes to nite..a fren nudge me..tellin me bout her probs wif her bf...n guess wut...it recalled my memories...i started to c 'her' again in everytin...its like everytin...went out 4 a fresh air...n its even worst...i look at the car parked...a car is missing...a car tat used to bring hapiness to me...but it jus drove off...n it wont come back anymore...i keep on tellin myself...its over...its reli over...a voice called out from de bottom of my heart...'i don wish to end'......but no choice...now i reli understand de feelin of loosing sum1 important in ur live...like wad de movies elwez say, if u luv sum1, jus let her find her hapiness..shes hapi n u'll b hapi too...n i know shes havin her happiest life now when he appeared...seriously...no hatred on u bro..instead i felt sorry 4 her 4 wasting her 2 years time wif me..if she met u earlier...she wouldn b suffering so much...thanks 4 makin her happy again...thanks bro...

probably its not de time yet...i shouldnt involve myself in any relationships...its my prob...once again..i've made a wrong decisions...is reliability n love hav de same meaning??...am i living too much in memories??..APPRECIATION...i reli wish i would appreciate wad i used to hav...i reli wish de time would stop moving forward...but no such thing will happen...i lost my keys 4 several times...im so anxious bout it..i don wish to lose it..its not de keys i wanted de most..but the moon..the moon has been seperated 4 nearly a year..it wont b a full moon anymore...but stil...half of it remain in me...i rather keep de only thing 4 myself...de 1 and only thing...

cyprian justin lee nyit loong!!!!!..b tough my fren...there wont b miracle happend on ya..as u've done too much sins...tis is wad u get as a punishment...and ur doin it again as u know who u wanted de most......theres gonna b a hardships in every relationships..once u've got beaten once..there wont b any victory again...so wad??!!!...stand on ur feet again n fight!!!!!!

Betrayal

i've messed up everytin...owning something that would bring benefits for myself...betrayal had happened in my life..betray myself for my own benefits and i know it would bring sadness and probably trouble to myself and the other side....im turning into somebody that i barely dont understand...everybody will definitely say 'NO' and 'you are an ass for doing such a thing'......but i've made up my mind...i will never turn back like wad i used to do..cuz i know there wont b anything tat wil giv u another chance...even when u know u hav done something wrong n u wish to turn it back but....de answer wil be no......

So....im hoping for a miracle to happen once im walkin along this path..probably it wil turn out to b....genuine....i hope it reli does...im sure that im doin this is jus for my benefits....n im doing something that will b hurtful...im sick of the opinions and impressions on wad people is lookin at me...since i hav these kinda impressions for u guys...y don i make it obviously??..probably u guys will shut up if i make it to de worst?? i know it wont happen anyway....cuz....cyprian lee is like wad the others said...

im sick of proving myself...if u wan it tat way...ill show u tat way and im doin de worst of all now!!..betraying myself for my very own benefits...but stil..i can say that im scare of myself...y would i ever think of these stuff when i know its wrong...i can feel de goose bumps when i think of it...its jus so scary..one step forward...n there wont b turning back...

i hope everytin wil turn in a better way.......pls pls pls...i don wana b hurtful...n i wont ask for forgiveness from u if u found out 1 day....

Killing Spreee!!!

Attention!!!...this is de last view of Yo Yo (Yuen Li@Shirley's dog) as im GONNA KILL IT RITE AWAY...any last wish for Yo Yo??...OMG!!!...tis dog is so so annoying n keep on barking in de middle of the nite....luckily Yuen Li was sleepin last nite if not im gonna dump Yo Yo at de rubbish bin downstairs...im not sure y would tis dog luvs to stay awake and wont get tired...n keep on distrubing everybody....any interested??..im gonna sell u tis dog..for...erm...RM 20...haha..better than RM 10 at least..not tat cheap...

Ps: Yo Yo..i do appreciate ya..look at de price i offered to the market..RM 20 bucks
man!!!...haha..anyway..jus jokin...hopefully Yun Li wont notice my blog...but serious...i do wana kill tis dog or keep her mouth shut...damn annoying n torturing...HELP ME ANYONE!!!!!!


LOOK AT HER!!!..FEEL LIKE SQUEEZING HER TIL SHE CHOKED!!...DAMN..hehehe...jus jokin...im not so cruel to animals actually..kekek

Peculiar day

hem....30th of may 2009 had been a very very peculiar day for me...jus felt strange when de clock reached 12am..hahaha..not tat spooky but everytin started when i had a cal wif a fren...a special fren of mine...she is in UK now n we chatted through msn with our ear phone although we have different time zone..haha..we chatted for...erm..let me count..from 3am to 8am!!..haha..5 whole hours man!!..omg...from our conversation i can sense that she had grown up...not de lil baby tat i used to see that couldnt handle anything when problems occured..in tat case...i felt kinda happy for her but...i think i nid time to get used to it as i treated her differently from de others...shes a kid for me n i concern bout her so much...treated her jus like my lil baby...haha..but not now anymore...shes getting old....kekeke...anyway..glad tat u've grown matured...reli happy to c tat...so im sending my best wishes to ya Shy Yi...take care...


Cadee..Shy YI

after that....had my dinner wif elvin n wei chiat....been discussing sumtin n de topic is about 'a player'...player in relationships....haha..yeah yeah...they were takin me as their topic again on the dinner table..but..they did point out sumtin...sumtin on de behaviour of a boy..trying to get sumtin from a gurl....n de way a boy acted..for me it is normal and probably gentleman but....it cant be applied in malaysia as..what they said 'malaysians r stil conservative!!...u treated them that way u may make them missunderstand'...besides that..u guys luvs to keep on talkin bout the past..im not sure wads de intention but..u guys jus luv it...(guan seng, JN82 and many more)..although im immuned to it but..haha..im not cold blooded n im not taking tat relationship as a game..stil hav feelin on it, assholess...hem...get back to the gentleman thing...i've never thought of it...cuz every boys may treat a gurl like tat rite???...haih...haha..anyway..thanks 4 de whole nite of 'lecturing'...haha


after that came back n sat in front of my laptop..facing it doin nothing n recalled on what they said...n it confused me a lot~!!!...aahhh...don care...so go on downloading songs...come across a song called 'about you now' from sugababes...hem..should b a nice song bcuz i kinda like sugababes...downloaded it n i listen to the lyric...to my suprised tis song is de answer for all my probs....i cant reli describe de feeling but it did recall lots of memories and...this song is more on turning back with their loves one....but i prefer walking straight and this song is giving encouragement to go ahead, march forward!!.........'and now i reli know...how i feel about you now'....










Mr Elvin EE
Mr Oh Wei Chiat

THANKS BROS!!!

wad'd passed had passed..i will not bring yesterday back around....although i know

how i feel about you now...but it is jus a feeling and a feeling can be stored forever...not being together but the feeling of keeping you aside...thanks...tis song is de key for everything...haha...elvin!!!!...wei chiat!!!!!!!!!!!....i understand wad r u guys trying to say!!!!!!!!!....thanks thankss!!!!

i miss both of u!!

i miss both of u so so much!!..although been callin u guys through fon but jus wish to get back to sandakan and go out with u guys again..haha...i cant believe that u guys can see things through my heart..yes..gor gor is suffering from some probs but gor gor promise will be fine when i get back on aug k??...haha...look young from de outside but was so suprised that both of u can read my mind..haha..guys let me intro my younger bro n sis...hahaha





shes yee yee..my cute lil sister tat luvs to eat ice cream a lot...although i cant reli understands her language cuz...she has her own language...keke..funny lil yee yee but to my suprised...she pop out a ques tat amazed me a lot and shes only 7!...'gor...y u look so unhappy when everytime u watch a happy ending love story?' hem..in my opinion there wont be such a happy ending in reality..n of course..she came across my mind...'gor probably u and you another jie jie quarrel..so jus say soli to her..everytin will b fine, nah..ill give u my ice cream'...omg...shes jus.....my favourite..haha..












kelvin...yee yee's elder bro...tat luvs to eat anytin tasty n he does respect so so much..not like other kids tat do not respect de elder...haha...im not sayin im de elder but at least im older than them rite??..haha...guess wut...he tought me how to wash my own shoes man!!..omg...cuz i usually throw my shoes to my maid or anytin..but...we had fun while washing our shoes..n my water guns r taken out from my store room after a few years hibernating in tat room...haha...kidss..i jus luv kidss..keke..im very very sure i dono how to wash my own shoes when i was 10..haha














gor is coming back on aug....promise wil b fine when gor get back k??..luv u guys!!!

CYPRIAN IS BACK!!!!!!!!!

hahahahahaha.....finally school started and i have to get back to inti..damn...i miss sandakan so so much...wish to stay there cuz its really really relaxing....that is why the proverb of home sweet home existed..haha..now then i understand...hem...once i step into nilai...the first thing that came across my mind was.................damn! i nid to clean up my room!!!...haha...jus got back for 2 weeks and my room is full with dust...haha..im not sure how does it look like if i take de longest holiday..

but i jus dropped my luggage once i reached inti cuz rushing for enrollment...hey..im kinda satisfy with the new sem's students...know how dress up n look good...im talkin on both sex...gurls n boys...haha...not bad not bad...at least not those nerds n bookworms tat used t have in inti...hehe..

finally...de toughest part of the day....room cleaning...haih..used a few hours to clean up everytin...while im cleaning...found lots of my old stuff n some stuff tat do not belong to me...so...at tat time...i was thinkin whether i should keep it wif me, put it aside or jus throw it away....been bothering me de whole day...keep it 4 memories or wut..or put it aside in one of de corner of my room...at tat very moment i hav never thought of throwing it away...heemmmmmmmm

guess wut...i threw them away...i don want them to keep on reminding me tat i used to hav a very very and understanding person beside me tat keep me accompany everytime and forgive me for every mistakes that i've done...my mistake for not appreciate her rite??...yeah ryte....so i jus throw it away n make me awake from these torturing moments...i don wana screw up my life again....i jus did..a few months time..but not now!!!!!!...i swear to my family n myself...i wont disappointed u guys again!!!!!!!!!...i promise....

i will keep my promises as i can feel the disappointment when someone tat i trusted the most lied at me n never keep her promises....so.......learn from mistakes???...yeah...thanks lot...u turn me into a better man....awake from greed n laziness...although its a very torturing moment...but finally......i can c de consequences when u apply those negative habit in ur life...u wil loose everytin....i did...i reli did...so its my time to get it back.....but not the same old thing..something that wil improve my life....

IM BACK!!!!!!!!!..................CYPRIAN IS BACK!!!!!!!!!

the current cyprian

am i dead??...neh!!!..stil surviving here but nearly die..haha..emr..had been de worst sem ever n i screwed up everytin!!!..n i screwed up de most in my studies..everytin nid to b put aside by now..don feel like torturing myself anymore..din do it in purpose but jus elwezs look back n hoping 4 a new hope everytime...last sem??..yeah rite..next sem gonna b my last sem again...felt so so sorry 4 my family in disappointing them again n again...by now should b half way in my path but im stil stuck in de starting line...

went back to sandakan in my sem break...so every1 knows bout it n to my suprise they din even laugh or talk bad bout me as sandakan luvs to gossip n spread things wildly...im kinda touch when my family n my frens 4 being supportive all de time..thanks mum n dad..both of u reli gave me a great time in tis 2 weeks holiday...i promise tat i wont let u guys down again..i mean it...

so....ill leave it here 1st..time to go to church...haha...ill update my blog again...heee..cyprian is alrite now...u wont c de dead cyprian again...

Orientation Nite Jan 09

hem..jus got back from rehearsal..cant stand it anymore..not bcuz of too many works but everytin flashed back into my mind when ur de organising chairperson 4 an onite..i don hav de courage to stay there 4 long..wad'd got into me??!!...but i think things wil get to normal when time passes..i jus nid time...so wish me luck every1...

3 tests 2molo n i stil nid to go 4 de rehearsal..damn..kinda bored wif onite edy but no choice..used to quarrel like hell 4 onite..haha..did recall lots of stuff..dono y everytin wil jus pop out in mind when im in nilai..especially my apartment tat im living in..

'if u reli luv her, jus set her free'...i did..but i cant set myself free at tis moment..probably jus at tis moment...no1 reli understands me...Cyprian= danger n player...FARK U GUYS MAN!!!!!!!!!...JUS SAY IT IN FRONT OF ME N DON GOSSIP WHEN I WAS NOT AROUND!!...SHOW ME UR FARKING PROVE THEN!!

im stil me...no1 wil ever understand me...only me myself..n u...

11th of Feb 2009

I used to call you my girl...
Iused to call you my friend...
I used to call you the love...
The love that I never had...

You were all that I want...
You were all that I need...
Can you see how i feel...
Can you see that my pain...so real...

When I think of you...
I don't know what to do...
When will I see you again...

I miss you like crazy...
Even more than words can say...
Every minute of everyday...
I am so down when your loves are not around...

Im gonna miss you.....