when i turn my back from you

14 of aug..exactly at 1.56pm...i've spent not more than a minute staring at your face...one last hug before u leave...its reli killing me..de hard feelings that suddenly popped out from my heart when i walked straight to the elevator...from that second i can felt the lonesome was jus right in front of me...im not dare to look at u 4 more than a minute..i know i cant manage to overcome the feelings of getting stabbed by a knife..i chosed to walk straight and without looking back and say goodbye...once i got back...the room is so empty without u...parts of my stuff were in the room...wheres urs??...wheres ur dirty clothes??..wheres ur cosmetics??...and where is ur small piggy pillow??...they will not appear in my room anymore..the whole house is empty..the emptiness keeps on flooding in...yeah..ah kok, my cousin was here wif me..but its not the same..the room belongs to us...but...i jus cant suit it!!...the room is not for me only...haiihhh

i wish i can turn back the time...stop it right there and u will b here again..with me all the time...dinner together, take our nap together, bullshit with each other...tis is a test for us...i know we can overcome it 4 sure!!..but..i jus cant face it all by myself...im totally a stranger to myself now...i dono who i am when ur not here wif me...mayb im too dependant...im writting tis blog at 2.24am-15th of aug...i hope u will stay by my side again...

i promise u ill take good care of myself...i wont let u wori bout me k??..i will keep my word...elwez remember the do's and dont's..haha..but i jus wan u to know..i miss u baby..im totally lost without u...i cant find myself...where am i??..u brought me home as well??...aihh...its getting late now...gonna sleep soon...n im gonna sleep 2nite all myself tonite..hope i can overcome the loneliness and sleep soundly without ur hug...finally..luv u elwez n miss ya...Huey Ling..