Peculiar day

hem....30th of may 2009 had been a very very peculiar day for me...jus felt strange when de clock reached 12am..hahaha..not tat spooky but everytin started when i had a cal wif a fren...a special fren of mine...she is in UK now n we chatted through msn with our ear phone although we have different time zone..haha..we chatted for...erm..let me count..from 3am to 8am!!..haha..5 whole hours man!!..omg...from our conversation i can sense that she had grown up...not de lil baby tat i used to see that couldnt handle anything when problems occured..in tat case...i felt kinda happy for her but...i think i nid time to get used to it as i treated her differently from de others...shes a kid for me n i concern bout her so much...treated her jus like my lil baby...haha..but not now anymore...shes getting old....kekeke...anyway..glad tat u've grown matured...reli happy to c tat...so im sending my best wishes to ya Shy Yi...take care...


Cadee..Shy YI

after that....had my dinner wif elvin n wei chiat....been discussing sumtin n de topic is about 'a player'...player in relationships....haha..yeah yeah...they were takin me as their topic again on the dinner table..but..they did point out sumtin...sumtin on de behaviour of a boy..trying to get sumtin from a gurl....n de way a boy acted..for me it is normal and probably gentleman but....it cant be applied in malaysia as..what they said 'malaysians r stil conservative!!...u treated them that way u may make them missunderstand'...besides that..u guys luvs to keep on talkin bout the past..im not sure wads de intention but..u guys jus luv it...(guan seng, JN82 and many more)..although im immuned to it but..haha..im not cold blooded n im not taking tat relationship as a game..stil hav feelin on it, assholess...hem...get back to the gentleman thing...i've never thought of it...cuz every boys may treat a gurl like tat rite???...haih...haha..anyway..thanks 4 de whole nite of 'lecturing'...haha


after that came back n sat in front of my laptop..facing it doin nothing n recalled on what they said...n it confused me a lot~!!!...aahhh...don care...so go on downloading songs...come across a song called 'about you now' from sugababes...hem..should b a nice song bcuz i kinda like sugababes...downloaded it n i listen to the lyric...to my suprised tis song is de answer for all my probs....i cant reli describe de feeling but it did recall lots of memories and...this song is more on turning back with their loves one....but i prefer walking straight and this song is giving encouragement to go ahead, march forward!!.........'and now i reli know...how i feel about you now'....










Mr Elvin EE
Mr Oh Wei Chiat

THANKS BROS!!!

wad'd passed had passed..i will not bring yesterday back around....although i know

how i feel about you now...but it is jus a feeling and a feeling can be stored forever...not being together but the feeling of keeping you aside...thanks...tis song is de key for everything...haha...elvin!!!!...wei chiat!!!!!!!!!!!....i understand wad r u guys trying to say!!!!!!!!!....thanks thankss!!!!

i miss both of u!!

i miss both of u so so much!!..although been callin u guys through fon but jus wish to get back to sandakan and go out with u guys again..haha...i cant believe that u guys can see things through my heart..yes..gor gor is suffering from some probs but gor gor promise will be fine when i get back on aug k??...haha...look young from de outside but was so suprised that both of u can read my mind..haha..guys let me intro my younger bro n sis...hahaha





shes yee yee..my cute lil sister tat luvs to eat ice cream a lot...although i cant reli understands her language cuz...she has her own language...keke..funny lil yee yee but to my suprised...she pop out a ques tat amazed me a lot and shes only 7!...'gor...y u look so unhappy when everytime u watch a happy ending love story?' hem..in my opinion there wont be such a happy ending in reality..n of course..she came across my mind...'gor probably u and you another jie jie quarrel..so jus say soli to her..everytin will b fine, nah..ill give u my ice cream'...omg...shes jus.....my favourite..haha..












kelvin...yee yee's elder bro...tat luvs to eat anytin tasty n he does respect so so much..not like other kids tat do not respect de elder...haha...im not sayin im de elder but at least im older than them rite??..haha...guess wut...he tought me how to wash my own shoes man!!..omg...cuz i usually throw my shoes to my maid or anytin..but...we had fun while washing our shoes..n my water guns r taken out from my store room after a few years hibernating in tat room...haha...kidss..i jus luv kidss..keke..im very very sure i dono how to wash my own shoes when i was 10..haha














gor is coming back on aug....promise wil b fine when gor get back k??..luv u guys!!!

CYPRIAN IS BACK!!!!!!!!!

hahahahahaha.....finally school started and i have to get back to inti..damn...i miss sandakan so so much...wish to stay there cuz its really really relaxing....that is why the proverb of home sweet home existed..haha..now then i understand...hem...once i step into nilai...the first thing that came across my mind was.................damn! i nid to clean up my room!!!...haha...jus got back for 2 weeks and my room is full with dust...haha..im not sure how does it look like if i take de longest holiday..

but i jus dropped my luggage once i reached inti cuz rushing for enrollment...hey..im kinda satisfy with the new sem's students...know how dress up n look good...im talkin on both sex...gurls n boys...haha...not bad not bad...at least not those nerds n bookworms tat used t have in inti...hehe..

finally...de toughest part of the day....room cleaning...haih..used a few hours to clean up everytin...while im cleaning...found lots of my old stuff n some stuff tat do not belong to me...so...at tat time...i was thinkin whether i should keep it wif me, put it aside or jus throw it away....been bothering me de whole day...keep it 4 memories or wut..or put it aside in one of de corner of my room...at tat very moment i hav never thought of throwing it away...heemmmmmmmm

guess wut...i threw them away...i don want them to keep on reminding me tat i used to hav a very very and understanding person beside me tat keep me accompany everytime and forgive me for every mistakes that i've done...my mistake for not appreciate her rite??...yeah ryte....so i jus throw it away n make me awake from these torturing moments...i don wana screw up my life again....i jus did..a few months time..but not now!!!!!!...i swear to my family n myself...i wont disappointed u guys again!!!!!!!!!...i promise....

i will keep my promises as i can feel the disappointment when someone tat i trusted the most lied at me n never keep her promises....so.......learn from mistakes???...yeah...thanks lot...u turn me into a better man....awake from greed n laziness...although its a very torturing moment...but finally......i can c de consequences when u apply those negative habit in ur life...u wil loose everytin....i did...i reli did...so its my time to get it back.....but not the same old thing..something that wil improve my life....

IM BACK!!!!!!!!!..................CYPRIAN IS BACK!!!!!!!!!

the current cyprian

am i dead??...neh!!!..stil surviving here but nearly die..haha..emr..had been de worst sem ever n i screwed up everytin!!!..n i screwed up de most in my studies..everytin nid to b put aside by now..don feel like torturing myself anymore..din do it in purpose but jus elwezs look back n hoping 4 a new hope everytime...last sem??..yeah rite..next sem gonna b my last sem again...felt so so sorry 4 my family in disappointing them again n again...by now should b half way in my path but im stil stuck in de starting line...

went back to sandakan in my sem break...so every1 knows bout it n to my suprise they din even laugh or talk bad bout me as sandakan luvs to gossip n spread things wildly...im kinda touch when my family n my frens 4 being supportive all de time..thanks mum n dad..both of u reli gave me a great time in tis 2 weeks holiday...i promise tat i wont let u guys down again..i mean it...

so....ill leave it here 1st..time to go to church...haha...ill update my blog again...heee..cyprian is alrite now...u wont c de dead cyprian again...