Betrayal

i've messed up everytin...owning something that would bring benefits for myself...betrayal had happened in my life..betray myself for my own benefits and i know it would bring sadness and probably trouble to myself and the other side....im turning into somebody that i barely dont understand...everybody will definitely say 'NO' and 'you are an ass for doing such a thing'......but i've made up my mind...i will never turn back like wad i used to do..cuz i know there wont b anything tat wil giv u another chance...even when u know u hav done something wrong n u wish to turn it back but....de answer wil be no......

So....im hoping for a miracle to happen once im walkin along this path..probably it wil turn out to b....genuine....i hope it reli does...im sure that im doin this is jus for my benefits....n im doing something that will b hurtful...im sick of the opinions and impressions on wad people is lookin at me...since i hav these kinda impressions for u guys...y don i make it obviously??..probably u guys will shut up if i make it to de worst?? i know it wont happen anyway....cuz....cyprian lee is like wad the others said...

im sick of proving myself...if u wan it tat way...ill show u tat way and im doin de worst of all now!!..betraying myself for my very own benefits...but stil..i can say that im scare of myself...y would i ever think of these stuff when i know its wrong...i can feel de goose bumps when i think of it...its jus so scary..one step forward...n there wont b turning back...

i hope everytin wil turn in a better way.......pls pls pls...i don wana b hurtful...n i wont ask for forgiveness from u if u found out 1 day....