everything has come to an end

once it is torn, it wont be combined anymore..but i don wish tis sentence is true..expected we would end up tis way, but stil...i cant accept it...expectation doesnt mean u'll hav a wise acception..26 of sept 2008..would b a nightmare 4 me..i reli hope there wil not b 26th of sept!!..when tis new semester started..i found out sumtin tat can relax me so much...is to be alone..sittin in bistro..relaxing urself wif a cup of teh o ice..lookin at de environment..relaxes me a lot...i did de same thing too 2day (26 sept)...automatically u wil pop out in my mind..theres no more relaxation 4 me at tis period..making myself bz n tired would be de best thing ever..have to be extremely exhausted, can sleep directly without anything in mind...

i don hav a single hatred on u...not even a bit...ill b de asshole if i stil keep u by my side...should be thankful to hav u to b my piggy once in my lifetime..all the forgiveness tat u've given..reli flood my eyes wif tears..should b hapi 4 u cuz ur gonna start a new life soon..4getting all de bad memories here..18th of jan 2008..stil remember??..sumtin bad happend to both of us...u got disappointed..i lost a bunch of frens..but de important thing was i've hurted u badly..im so sorry 4 tat..

its reli torturing to let u go..like in my 1st post..my room is so empty without u..now my whole farking life is so empty without u...not trying to take things 4 granted but i reli felt so...de time now is 7.12pm, 26th of sep 2008, clement went back, kok went to work...if nothing happened i would b in pontian wif u now..resting at home..i've lost sumtin valuable...i couldnt get it back 4 sure..jus let it b..time will fade everything..hopefully it reli does...

thanks 4 all de sweet memories...i cant cal u baby or dear anymore...not even ur nickname..fei po ling..i will locked these in my heart..now..2molo..until my last breath..but i reli hope things wil change..not tis endin..i've told u tat ur de last n i mean it..can i tel u sumtin??..3rd of dec will b de happiest day in my life...i've registered a vacation 2 hk...only both of us...haha..but now...yeah..stil there wil b 2 person goin..but its gonna b my parents...a suprise turn into a tragedy...

all i wan from u is to live hapily...do remember to eat...n a special msg to yen ling...do take care of her..she wont eat anytin when shes alone...do acc her 4 de 3 meals...gastric is her worst nightmare..so...thanks hl...i can only meet u...in de pics...n our sweet memories...thanks 4 being such a good gf..wil b rite here..waiting 4 u to say yes again...take care n luvya..