a stranger called cyprian

Birthday Bashes

2010-09-30T06:55:00.000-07:00

Hey peepss!! haha...I am not going to apologize for not updating my blog again since...i am kinda lazy to update nowadays...i have a lot of stuff to share...so erm...lets start with my birthday bashes...haha...At first...haha...i've planned a party back in my hometown and invited a few friends of mine from Inti...but ended up, trip cancellation...hahaha...am so so sorry for that and i bet you guys had taken all the 'expectations and lust' by heading to Zan Mai sushi and everything is on me! haha...neways, don't wanted to make it wordy....its picture time!!

Celebrated my birthday on the 15th of September...counting dow
n in a bar in Sandakan, Fox Lounge...not so bad...but when the Dj blasts the music...it freaking awful cuz, all techno songs and it nearly kills me...haha...and for the very first time...i reached there around 11.15pm and went home exactly at 1.45am...i bet you know why...I WAS DRUNK LIKE SHIT! HAHA

15th of September 2010

Cousins from Kota Kinabalu..thanks for turning up!! love u guyss!!

too many wishes!! but in the made the one and only wish i wanted the most..haha

the 'candle game' after you've blown the candle..haha..

Mr Billy Ng..thanks for organizing this wonderful and memorable nite!

Love this pic the most!! haha

The last cup attempt of filling alcohol in my body...and Boom! off the ground was sent home..haha

Ms Tina...thanks for the hospitality!! haha

when it comes to 16th of September...it has been 4 years since my last birthday in Sandakan..and of course..am looking forward to celebrate with my family...but...my 2nd sister wasnt here but its okayy..cuz managed to enjoy myself with my parents and my elder sister...thanks for everything dad and mum..love u guysss!! muacksss..and to all my cousins too..haha..thanks guysss...

16th of September 2010

thanks for turning up Clareen and Eve!

Adrian and Clareen...it's been a while since the last time i met them..haha

Miss all my cousinss!! haha

A few slices of my birthday cake...thankss! haha

I don't wish for more as long as all of you will stay healthy all the time and...celebrate each of our birthday together..thats my wish for my family..love u guys =)

thanks for the dinner dad!! haha

POSER! hahaha..muacksss~!!

My dinner plate on that day...lamb chop should be?

Peace to the world!! haha

Playing with my mum..haha..dad gonna scold me for playing with a knife! haha

thanks to Leiny for the cake...appreciate it a lot..

another family portrait...waiting for u to come back Wei Jie!!

i just love ma home!! haha

=)

cutting off the cake..its really really a delicious cake! yummy!

Ps: i wanted to give a special thanks to Leiny, for planning everything for my early birthday celebration but i did not turn up in the end of the night...i am very sorry for that and we know the reason...anyway..appreciate so so much although we did not really celebrate it..i can sense your sincerity..thanks alot...muackss

thanks... =)

move on to cadee...made me a birthday card..haha..it's been a while since i received birthday cards and it was hand made! haha..really really thank you so so much! haha..and would like to apologise for not turning up..i know you've arranged a wonderful night but...hmmm...hehe..you know why..so am very very sorrryy...newayss..thanks for the card yaa~! =)

she is the one!! thanks shy yi..

AND THANKS FOR ALL THE WISHES IN FACEBOOK, CALLS, TEXT MESSAGES AND EVEN EMAILSS!! THANKS LOADDDS GUYS!! THE GREATEST BIRTHDAY EVER!

Add ups

2010-08-06T07:54:00.000-07:00

Hey folksss~~ haha...finally a new post ey?? i've been busy with lotsa stuff these few weeks and months...and now final is just around the corner...sigh~~ but why in a sudden with this new post ey?? haha...according to the title above it is something about adding something in...so what will it be????

it is about 'The Name Giver' list....haha..if you did catch up with my blog last few months ago you will know what am i talking about right now...so who and what is the new name?? haha..will be revealed soon and.........ta daaaa~~!!!

the sampat mei~~ haha...and of course....ehemmm~~ Jaslyn Khong..phewit~~ haha

scratched my head so much in getting a name for her..and suddenly an old friend of mine pop out in my mine..her name is Jasmine...but...neh~~ not gonna name her Jasmine of course..then in a sudden with the pronunciation of my tongue with the combination of sweets in my mouth of that time...hahaha...and here comes a new name...i don't have a a friend name Jaslyn in my life...so here you go...a girly name for you sampat mei~~ Jaslyn Kong from now on...^^

here are some fellow friends that i've named them...add up with one..the lastes...Jaslyn...hahah

the first person that i named...Leiny

move on it's Ayden..with the definition of cool~~ duh =.= hahaha

Jael is the next name..A model's name..u better send me your gratitude~!! haha

my greatest satisfaction of all..Chezanne...the one and only name..cool ey?? haha

and here you go Jaslyn....no more sampat mei~~ and its Jaslyn Khong right now..hehe..hope you will like it... ^^

Enjoyable night with explosive NEWS!!

2010-06-20T13:25:00.000-07:00

20th of June 2010...an explosive night that filled me with shocking and surprising news!! I can't really accept all the facts at the same time..but you know..haha..i will and always take things easily...haha...i've been..so called hibernating in my room for exactly two whole days without stepping out from my house after Ah Beee left...but not tonight because a close friend of mine brought her the other half for a meet up..haha

and here you go...my besties, Shin Hui that finally found her the other half...thanks for introduction!! haha

Move on with our story...before that i dropped by Steve's house to meet up with Shin Hui for the tea time...and guess what...and this is the moment i filled with shock!! haha...he showed me a porn and guess what....THE GUY IN THE PORN IS MY FRIEND!! AHHHH!! how clumsy are you!! So..i am here wishing you that nothing happens on you...i've done what a friend should do..and hopefully nothing will happen and i am not sure how many copies of your video out there~~ all the best dude...AND HELL YEAH~~ STEVE, YOU ALWAYS FILL ME WITH EXCITEMENT..LOVE YA DUDE!! HAHA~!!

Mr Steve....always a calm and steadily solver..

Next would be the awareness of two friends of mine, COUPLED UP IN A SUDDEN WITHOUT ANY ANNOUNCEMENT!! hahaha...glad to know that and here is my congratulations for both of you..it is always a good news when two people coupled up together and build a new bond between them..and thanks to Mr Ng Ting Yao, i got to know about this good news..but...IT IS SO SHOCKING BECAUSE I'VE NEVER THOUGHT OF IT BEFORE! hahaha

here you go...Mr Yao..thanks for the good news..hehe

Last but not least, another news that 'amazed' me...and i bet most of you heard about it too...it is about an affair between a student and a lecturer...because of that both lecturers are having a divorce right now due to the affair..sigh~~ shame on the third party as you shouldn't do such thing...but the blame shouldn't be on you alone, Mr xxxxxxx!! You are always a good lecturer to me but..haha..not a good husband to me...hehehe..and thanks to Shin Hui and Madeline, i got to know this news..haha..indeed...a great night!!

oh ya...you look great with this hairstyle...hehehehe~~

before this...let put more picture in this post...hehe...introducing...

Shin Hui..the lovely dovey with her new boy boy...our latest pic..5th of May 2010

Mr Steve...my only 'bra' that i can wear on...haha..our latest pic..18th of April 2010

Ah Yao go go~~ the sampat of all!! haha...our latest pic...25th of March 2010

it is always great talking with ya...Madam..our latest pic..25th of July 2009

ps: seriously we need to take pic..my pic of urs is getting old..haha

AND AND AND....THE VERY LAST THING...

CONGRATULATIONS TO BOTH OF YOU~!! haha...happy for you guys...wish you guys have the sweetest time of all~~!!

The Current me, filled with same old questions

2010-06-20T12:02:00.000-07:00

The current me...i bet everybody knows what am i busy with at this moment...i'm not sure about others impression on me but to those who are just my friends, not too close friends, they will definitely ask me these questions and they are always the opening line for our conversation...do you want to give it a shot on those questions??

First of all

'eh...how is everything going in Social Board?' or 'How is the preparation of Orientation Night?

'OR'

'hey hey..how is the participants for this semester?' or 'HOT CHICKS or PORKS this time?'

haha...i am kind of used to all the questions that related to Social Board...but, well...same old and always the same answer will be given to those questions...and my answer is....

WHY DON'T YOU BUY A TICKET FROM SOCIAL BOARD FOR THIS SEMESTER'S ORIENTATION NIGHT AND JUDGE THE PARTICIPANTS AS WELL AS THE SHOW FOR YOURSELVES...HAHA...'LOSERSSS!!!'

and of course i did not say the losers verbally...haha..kept it in my mind...you guys just love to judge us and why don't you run the event and give it a try?? haha..anyway..Social Board never disappoints me with all the funs and enjoyable moment although it is so farking tired...haha...so here are some pictures of us...enjoy and do support us on the 7th of July 2010..see you guys there~!!

some of us...always the posers and happy go lucky us...

Kevin...the one that always make things go smoothly..

Seniors of all...Seniors and a junior..guess...haha

having fun with the torch light and look at the size of it! haha..

ahhh~~ just love the moment so much~~ haha

My favourite pic of the night!!

The great senior, seniors of all, senior and a junior...GUESS!

Our dance coordinator...The sampat among the sampats~~

Seremban Trip

2010-04-30T22:15:00.000-07:00

helllooo there...this post is mostly about my new born baby!! haha...earned myself a lil pocket money and with the help from my sis..finally i manage to get myself a new phone...and she is my baby right now...haha...my favorite of all that will never hurt my feeling nor any disappointment, at this moment..haha...but wait til the end of the month when the phone bill arrives..omg~~ haha..picture time for my new born baby!!

was so excited when this box has taken out..hahaha

AAHHHH!! SHE COMING TO LIFE!! AAHHH!!

Finally...she is here..my lovely dovey wifey...muackss!!

Besides that i need to send my greatest gratitude to my lovely bro..Carmen...for being such a great tour guide in filling my time in Seremban with great food and great people..haha...thanks ya!
the legendary 14th floor apartment...haunted all the time..but for me..its kinda old school..haha..love oldie oldie cement..haha

my very first meal in seremban..just right below the haunted apartment

Carmen cooked it for me!! haha

she made it all by herself too..and its huge~!! haha

after our first meal...on our way for a tea in Alan's Cafe..the cafe where she used to hang out everyday..hehe

in Alan's cafe..waiting for Alex to turn up...hehe

a brand new beef noddle..never expected it would taste totally different..haha

my first bite...haha..not bad...6/10 haha

its bitter but i love it!! i dono what the name of it..but it taste great!!

from de left: Carmen, Alex and Hui Jin...thanks for your accompany!!

it has been a great day spending time with my bros and sistas, and it is time to head back to my home...Nilai, took a cab back and keep on noticing my phone...No text msgs nor calls from her...hmm~~ suspecting something should have happened...without thinkin too much i jus gave her a buzz...according to her tone i bet something had happened and she did not tell me anything bout it...jus after i hung up...this is wad happened....

The front mirroor suddenly cracked!!

Was shocked when it suddenly cracked..haha

My family

2010-04-27T10:01:00.000-07:00

I was browsing through my photo album that i brought all the way from my hometown...when i was doing it, lot of things came into my mind...my childhood memories, my family, what i have been through all these years...but it was more on disappointments..I'm starting to feel sorry for my family and myself for torturing myself in a certain period..let me tell you the story...

I was so cute at that time!! haha

Love ya mummy!! muackss!!

My family...hehe...when we were still young..

my siblings..

AND OH YEAH!! THIS IS DAPHNE LEE!! HAHA

2006 to 2008

Everything was so perfect at that moment...great and healthy life, commitments that will definitely last forever, great housemates and even my studies as well...but i'm pretty sure nobodys life will ever be that perfect all the time until 26th of Sept 2008...everything has just ended...screwed up my life with the only girl that will last until the end...because of my greed and temper...always hoping for more and more and more...never satisfy on what i owned at that time...when i recalled my memories, how stupid i was at that time...haha...because of this, ended up i did not manage to graduate my diploma on time...wasted a few semesters...hehe...after that...

the worst part....
i made my mum cried...i disappointed her for torturing myself and neglecting my studies...i lived not like a human being...i was totally wasted at that time...and i still remember that my mum called, after i've been ignoring their calls for 6 months...she called one day and asked me to be tough, she did not blame me for not doing well in my studies nor picking up their calls...haha..tell you guys honestly...i burst out like a baby at that moment..i just couldn't stand it anymore...

the recent mummy..oh i mean..the 2007 mummy..she is still the prettiest of all! haha

Daphne Lee...the day she left Malaysia..had a bad time in the airport...

we did not take much picture in the previous year ey dad?? haha

Celestina Lee...2007...went to club together?? haha..love ya~

2009 to 2010

haha...after that incident..thought i will be tougher and a stronger me in terms of relationships..but no~~ another relationship that took me down again...for another time, my mum was so heartache because i was being tortured like SHIT AT THAT TIME! i couldn't sleep all night because of her tiny little tempered...mum and dad wanted to cheer me up at that time...but they just couldn't confront me as they think it might even flick me with those stupid problems that i was interfered with at that moment..guess what they did...they support me in terms of monetary..i can see their effort in cheering me up...i was so touched because of that...mum cooked my favorite food, dad paid me for painting the fence and taking the newspaper? omg...what was i thinkin at that time...but luckily...i was awake after Chinese New Year...but indeed..i hurt them once again..sigh~~

hey hey!! finally a pic of my dad and i!! hehe..2009

Dad's birthday...2009...haha..mum u looked funny..haha

Our family trip to Genting...but Daphne wasn't here..sigh~~

2010

after 1st of March...everything seems to be normal at first...but of course..something was still bothering me but until you turned up..hehe..i mean u turned up for a certain period but until...u blast my mind with the advises that i used to apply it to your life...but indeed...u did help me in getting rid of my problems completely!! i was wondering how can you did that but...after all these weeks..we get to know each other deeper..i love the way you are...but probably things do not work like what i wanted it to be...so...i wont force it or what...just leave it naturally and i would take it as a test..test of my patience and my feeling towards ya..if it is genuine and strong feeling..time is not the problem..but i just love the life with you right now...i'm not dare to hope for more but thanks for everything...therefore, i do hope you are one of my family...

the day we went shoppin~~ Had a great day....love it muchiee~!

The Name Giver

2010-04-26T07:59:00.000-07:00

The title of this post sounds funny ey?? haha..but indeed..i had jus given my friend an English name..it just works every time...haha but i had just given 4 names to my friends randomly in my entire life..and all of them are still using the name that i created for them..hehe...kinda proud of it...haha..so let me intro my names to you..hehe..they are..Leiny, Jael, Chezanne and Ayden...and it is picture time...

She is the first person in my life to come out with an english name...and she is stil using it right now..hehe..everybody used to call her Min Wei..so i just came out with a name..Leiny just for her and she loves it...so she is still using it right now..ho ho ho~~ i named her when we were still in our high school..so it was a long long time ago...hehe..honestly, Leiny is another friend of mine back in high school but she was originated from Tawau...was flirting with her that moment until you Leiny Min Wei appeared..so..i just named you Leiny..and i have never tell you the truth rite?? haha...this is the truth...hope you don't mind..haha

Next would be you...i bet everybody knows who she is...and who she was back in the past..yesh~~ she is Huey Ling..for those who has never seen her before..here is a pic for you guys...haha..and i gave her the name, Jael...cool ey?! haha...but actually i was watching America Next Top Model and there was a contestant named Jael and she was so damn hot!! haha..so at that time i just name her Jael..and she doesn't know the truth yet...haha..hope she wont read this post..hehe

here comes the first guy that i named and his name was totally unique as i have never heard of this name before...and i came out with my own spelling and pronunciation..this is his name...Chezanne...cool ey?!! hahaha..the whole 'Chezanne' thing is actually comes from his name..Chee Zheng Yang..and when u try to read it in a full speed...it sounds just like Chezanne...haha..therefore, he is Chezanne..although it sounds like a girl's name but it fits him i think...hehe

Ayden aka Cayden!! the name that i just come up with!! haha..an old friend of mine suddenly need to get himself an english name..and here you go...Ayden Tan...At first i do name him Cayden but i do not know how the hell did he get the word of Ayden and the definition of Ayden stands for sexy and hot!! haha..but i don think Ayden its a word..hehe..mind showing me the dictionary that your using now?? haha...so Cayden or Ayden is the latest name that i had just come out with..Ayden Tan...hehe

TOUCH SCREEN!

2010-04-23T23:55:00.000-07:00

oh yeah..just had a conversation with Enslem Lam Yi Kan...and guess what...keep on updating me with his stuff in Johor Bahru and suddenly...he pops out this question...'ey..how is your new phone going?' at first i thought...hey..he remembers what i've told him in the past...but i haven't replied anything yet and he showed me his new phone...ok...that doesn't mean anything but...one thing...'i use touch screen phone right now..and busy with my new phone' AAHHHH~!!!

NAH NAH NAH!! CAUGHT RED HANDED IN L** C-ING ME!! HAHA...don forget i always put my cam next to me..hehehe

sigh~~ the conversation that you are L**ing me...haha..just wait and see!!

For conclusion, he gets himself a new phone..and yeah...a new cushion for his car...that was all de whole conversation talking about...N DON L** L** C C LA!! hahahahaha

My new room

2010-04-23T07:18:00.001-07:00

It has been a tiring day with all the cleaning for my room..and decided to rearrange everything to make it fresh..hehe..so been using my braincell to come out with something new...and...here you go...my new and fresh room after all the rearrangement..hehe..love it muchie!!

the whole view of my room...hehe..totally in different arrangement..

the other side of my room...nice ey?? hehe

two tables for me...my concept is...1 table for my lappie as entertainment and the other 1 is for my studies...but i bet i will usually stick to the left table..haha

My two wardrobes with my favourite clothes in them...and with the some liquors on top..hehe..AS DECORATION..

and here goes my bed...the place where i can feel myself in the heaven when i sleep on it...

my stuffs...its like everything that i cherish the most are all here...hehe..noticed anything?? haha..let you guys find out...hehe

so that was my new arrangement..how do u guys think about it?? grade my creativity..hahah...forgot to took my previous arrangement...hehe..but i know the new arrangement is way better than the old one..believe me..kekeke...alrite...chiaozzz~~

Home will always be Sandakan

2010-04-23T04:28:00.000-07:00

Guess what...I MISS MY OWN BED IN MY HOMETOWN!! haha...cuz i chose to stay here and earn myself an extra pocket money to work as a promoter...n hell yeah~~ money is hard to earn man!! haha...but managed to learn a lot of stuff while working as a promoter..always need to smile and talk politely because...YOU ARE TALKING TO MONEY!! haha...they are they one who increase your commission...but...tired of traveling and all i need to blame is...im staying in Nilai...too far away but still...i love my life now...time adjustment, CHECKED!...gym and jog everyday, CHECKED!..haha...living in a very normal life now...and ITS WAY TOO NORMAL...get to bed around 10pm to 11pm and wake up around 8am EVERYDAY!! haha..i bet mum and dad will b proud of me and of course..hehe..BUT I REALLY REALLY MISS MA HOME!!...pictures below is my home sweet home in Sandakan...enjoy~~

this is what you will see when u enter my house..miss my 'wifey'!!

My pet at home...i don't like him anyway..but i do miss you now BRANDY!!

Uuhhh uhhh!! my living room where i can spend my whole day here...hehe..cuz of the wii...tennis!! THUMBS UP~!..and that is my dad and mum..hehe

ahhhh~!! i miss my room....where i can sleep soundly all the time..i miss u rommie!!

third floor...where i use to take a 'drag' here...hehe..and of course..relaxing myself with the 24 hours nature air condition..hehe

PC Fair 2010

2010-04-21T20:27:00.000-07:00

hey hey...for the very first time i worked in a PC Fair in Kuala Lumpur and it gave me an....awful but fun experienced...haha...i was so so surprised when i got there...the people were uncountable! what is so great about PC Fair by the way? it is like everybody is forming up to take over KLCC..haha...but of course...chicks and hunks everywhere...i worked in the streamyx booth and there were 30 promoters??! Isn't that too much?! haha...and felt humiliated when some of our promoters kept on shouting and danced around...im not being racist but...only Malays will do that...and i would like to thanks steve for giving me this opportunity to learn something new..haha..tiring but never regret in working as a promoter..haha..hmm~~ alrite..talk less but picture more~!! haha..enjoy!!

Came all the way from Nilai and reached KL Central...haha

took LRT and reached our destination..KLCC

and i cant believe you will change in the public!! haha

look at the crowd...i just don't understand why they would like to fit in the crowd..damn~

a new friend..from the left..Yeu Shin and Steve

was surprised to meet her here..haha..used to be my coursemate...haha

our team...from the left..Jeff, Steve and Yeu Shin...work on sunday and 4 of hit 34 sales..hahah~~ cool~

hey hey!! Coursemate back in diploma..but they moved to Inti Subang..good to cu guys again..haha

we worked until 10pm...and our last pic before we step out from the conventin hall..haha

Miss You Guys!!

2010-04-16T12:52:00.000-07:00

Seriously, i miss you guys like hell..I miss the time we used to hang out together all the time...and its like every moment..it has been a while since all of us really gather as everybody has their own life now...busy with all the career and studies..but still..we never stop contacting each other...but still...i miss you guys!!

introduction time : (from the left) Mr Tai aka Big Boss, Mr Adrian aka Kok, Ms Shirley aka Big Sista, Ms Kimmy aka The Wild, Ms Aisa aka Aunt Sa, Mr Bong aka Jay Bong

Let the lucky number be our Mr Tai...a bloody good kisser as a guy but...he only kisses GUYS OR DUDES!! haha...but in terms of fun of course..he just loves to kiss me when it comes to picture time..haha..a humble guy that taught me a lot of stuff in the working society...experience that filled in his life was so extreme and glad that he is still in a good shape..haha..but dude~ miss all his jokes and our time....

Adrian aka as ah kok!! spent most of our time together when we were young...showered and slept together...spent most of our childhood together and ran out from my house naked once!! hahaha...n he is my dearest COUSIE!! haha...used to be my housemate in Inti too but he left once he has done with his second year...haha..always fill my head with all the family advices but dude..appreciate it a lot and u made me miss u like crazy now...hahaha

Shirley...our ehemmm* the eldest among us...haha..i used de word eldest!! haha...a good listener and she is one crazy girl!! don't ever mess with her!! haha..have you noticed that her nickname is Big Sista? Cuz she always the big sista for all of us that always come out with the most reasonable advices and don't ever say no or else...hahaha...but we do love her muchie as she does love us like brother and sisters...hehe

The sweetest moment of all when i was cheated back in the past...and on the same day she pop out just for me and comfort me...i will always remember the day!! haha..thanks kimmy!! great great sisters that will be there for you in any time~ and i say ANYTIME!! she will always be there for us when we in need...haha..salute* our baby in 7 of us..hehe...but she can be pretty mean when you had a problem with her...and don ever think of giving it a try to make her angry...you will regret for sure..haha

Aunt Sa is her name!! always always nag nag nag nag~ haha...one softy girl but she is good in food!! believe me cuz u will never miss any good food when you are with her for the entire day..haha..always the pretty and the elegant her when in the public but when the time of seven of us...haha..u will be shocked for sure...haha...know you are having a hard time there..just bare in mind we will always be there for you alrite?? haha...can't believe i can be the one to tell you these kinda advices..haha

last but not least our freaking Bong always in confusion...Problems and confusions always bother him..never had a great life until.....hahaha..he found somebody and that is the end of his problems...oh ya~!! his nickname...Jay Bong~~ as he will only sing Jay Chow's songs...haha...he called himself as the second Jay Chow and i was like *puke* hahaha...you will see him hanging around in everywhere as he can pop out anytime from his work...cool ey~~!! hahaha...a good bro that always stand by your side when you just give him a buzz.....

AND NOW...OUR CRAZY PICTURES TIME!! BE AMAZED AND ENJOY~~!!

TOLD YOU!! HE IS A GUY KISSER!!

WE LOVE KICKING BUTTS!! HAHA

MY TURN THIS TIME!!

FREAKING GAYISH WITH SHIRLEY'S CARDIGAN AND SCARF!

DAMN IT!! NOT YOU TOO BONG?!

PUNISHMENT FOR DISOBEDIENCE..HAHA

I'M NO MORE A VIRGIN..ON THAT NIGHT..HAHA

ITS FOURSOME!!

GUESS WHO DID THIS TO ME..AND THAT WAS ADRIAN'S HAND

AND SHE DID TAT TO ME!!

BOXING LESSON AFTER OUR HOMEMADE DINNER BY SHIRLEY..HAHA

I ALWAYS GOT MOLESTED..SHOULD I SUE THEM?

WHAT THE HELL IS THIS? HAHA

THIS IS WHAT YOU GET WHEN U AGREE TO BE MOLESTED..HEHE

ONCE UPON A TIME..THEY BELIEVE SOMEBODY IS HIDING THERE..SPOOKYY~

WE DON'T DRINK!! HAHA

NOW U HAVE IT MR TAI! HAHA

HAHA!! THIS IS HOW SHE WILL ACT WHEN WE WERE TOGETHER!!

THE WHITE TEAM!! HAHA

OUR OPENING POSES ON DE NIGHT!! HAHA

THEIR OPENING POSE..AISA PULLED ADRIAN FROM DE BACK ACTUALLY..HAHA

THE ALL OF US...BUT MR TAI WASNT THERE...HEHE

OUR OWN CUP IN THE BAR! HAHA

SHE IS TRYING TO KILL HIM ON THAT NIGHT..HEHE

MY FAVORITE PIC OF ALL! THE TRUE HER!! HAHA

HOW MUCH U ENJOYED AT TAT MOMENT SHIRLEY! HAHA

HAHA..DON AKS ME CUZ I ALSO DONO..

DRAMA QUEEN!! HAHA

THE THERE RETARDS...HAHA

THE PUNCH BAG!! TRY IT OUT..NICE~~

THIS IS MORE COMFORTABLE..HAHA

AHHH!! ITS BUGGING ME AGAIN!! (COPIED FROM AUNT SA)

AND THIS IS EATING 'GON LOU MIN' (COPIED FROM ADRIAN)

LAST BUT NOT LEAST...3 RETARDS COPYING AISA..HAHA

AND THAT IS THE END OF MY PICTURES..HOPE YOU ENJOYED...TA TA!!

Chitty Chatty Night

2010-04-15T15:48:00.000-07:00

After the whole day of Final-ism...i was so exhausted and off to bed once i reached home around 6.45pm..I can tell you that it was a torturing moment sitting in the examination hall when you were in the worst condition ever!! Fainted straight away and woke up around 9pm and here come the chitty chatty night...haha

The first person that pops out..............

she is the my favourite sister of all, although i only have 2 sisters in my family but she is my favourite as all her words may inspires all the time...i will never say no to her cuz she will always be there for me when i need her...so...haha..all the mess and shits that happened, it will always be a secret to her...i don't wana disappoint her with all my issues over here...she is going to get a stoke if she knows about all the mess and everything that i have done since she left and it was like...2007?? 3 years of shits??! haha..how can she accept it!! haha..im not saying that i've been 3 years entirely shitty time..come on~~ oh ya....thanks for all the encouragements again sis...i know you wanted me to work hard so much and get my ass to Newcastle asap...but...i do like my life here...promise i'll be there once i've graduated...and only for a VISIT!! okayy?? we did talk about it...thank you for everything and i mean EVERYTHING....will always love ya dearie sis...muacksss~!!

secondly, you guys know her...Sou Yan Yeng~~

Cinderella girl, like what she called herself, as she will never come back after midnight...hmmm~~trustable?? haha..but she did come back sharp at 12am...haha...guai la...you know she can talk anything, showing you with all her funny expressions and even all the words...haha...hmmm~~ talk about something today...everything about plannings and she plans all the exciting parts for herself and what about my plans?! you planned mine but....duhh~~ going to spend my semester break here and u include studying in library in my daily routine?? haha...study in semester break?? you gonna plan all over again Miss Saw! haha...really really had spending time with ya in the net and if possible i will never miss a day staring and waiting for your accompany... =) *thanks for everything*

Next...my favourite student of all...Mui Nei Yan~~

my opening line when she pops out in Msn...OMG!! U ON9!! UNBELIEVABLE!!..haha...do not be suprised cuz i seldom see her online nowadays..in the last few weeks...she was sick and disappear from my sight like exactly for the entire two weeks...for sure i miss her since we can talk about a lot of stuff!! haha...glad that you are back and free with all your assignments plus tests...haha...but next week is your final and i know you couldn't make time for me again...ahhh~ miss talking to you but luckily we did talk tonight..haha...i do not hope so much from you but just want you to stay healthy all the time...and....hehe...yamcha for sure~!!

My long lost friend...opsss...Shin Hui

hmmm~~ when it comes to you...just one sentence...DO FEEL LIKE KILLING YOU FOR YOUR DISAPPEARANCE!! haha..haven't seen u for a long long time as...i know..the same old reason of yours..'you abnormal people yamcha in abnormal time' haha..am i right?? but sorry for not turning up like so many times...haha..you called just in the wrong time...haha..will catch you with you real real soon...as...ehemmm~~ somebody found somebody...haha..so i really need to catch up with you and know more about that 'somebody' of yours...hahaha..looking forward for monday night since you gonna leave soon...ahhh~~ hehe...buzz me and thanks for updating ya!! haha..n will turn up when u called okiee?? feel guilty since u have been a good friends all the time...haha..sorry and thanks for all the endurance...haha

best bro ever~~ in a girl's term...haha

hey!! now then i realised we had never taken a picture!! not even a pic bro~!! haha...and...this is a chance for...outings~!!! hahaha...oh yeah...know u gonna hav a great time in your semester break...singapore trip, perhentian and bla bla bla...but thanks for inviting!! hahaha..gonna plan my time properly...and oh ya~!! the name is Carmen...but call her as a meanie as she is so damn freaking mean!! haha...that is why we can be great bros..haha...we have the same personality ey?? haha..alrite...gonna plan my time and the purpose is the picture of both of us....1 last thing...thanks for spending time listening to my craps alrite?? hehe...

ps* u owe me alot of meals dude~!!!*

Last but not least...Aisa

hey hey~!! guess what...i miss our lives back in 2008...had fun like without any limitations...misses those times like crazy when there were no boundaries or anything...but now everybody is busy with all their studies and career...but...you are stil here all the time without letting this friendship fade away...haha...and of course...since we both are night cats...always US left in Msn of course u have no choice but to chat with me la!!! hahaha...just joking...its been a while since we really met but you are stil same to me...stil the same old you and we will never let anything comes between our friendship alrite...appreciate it much and thanks for the cookiess!! know you are having a rough time there...will look for you and hang out okiee?? just hang on there for a while...will call the rest too...we are always ONE...take care silly girl~~

Spent a few hours time chatting with all of them and there were some sad and happy stories of their own but....

i would like to take this opportunity to present an award...The Most Talkative and 'Long Breath' award...and the award goes to.............

MISS SOU YAN YENG!!
HAHAHAHA

*she keeps on being hyper and hyper and non stop sampat-ing*

but just love talking to you =)

The Importance

2010-04-05T19:33:00.000-07:00

In this post i would like to send my gratitude towards those who did cheer me up when i was in the worst condition...and to those who 'wake' me up when i was in the mess...i really need to thanks most of you for your help...and i know...you guys are important to me...thanks!!!

Mr Steve 'Wong Chun Kuan'

haha...my best 'bradell' as he helps me alot..in term of studies, financial and support me spiritually...and im not dare to admit that he is the only friend that made me cry because of his kindness..damn it so touching man!! as he will be there for me even i was so damn far away from him...thanks steve...thanks for everything!!

Adeline 'Mui Nei Yan'

ADELINE!! haha...u you are the best listener ever since i know you are willing to sit there and listen to everything that i said..im not sure whether u wanted to know but u just sat there quietly and listen to me...yeah..u did come out with your opinions but u will never try to say too much cuz u might think that i'll be offended...so...THAT IS WHY U GET BULLIED ALL THE TIME!! haha..but that is your characteristic...and im am impressed with your patience too...hehe...glad to have you to be my listener....thanks Mui Nei Yan!!

and of course Varick Goh

and of course...u did the most while i was in 'hell'..haha..still remember u sent me back to nilai purposely by just receiving a call in the middle of the night because i was kicked out....appreciate your effort and brotherhood!! and i owe u too much!! i din even know how can i ever repay u but...u will never be neglected because u have already step in my life...and u don ever think of running!! haha...thanks bro!!

Mr Enselm

okaayyy...when it comes to you...you din really help me alot but still..haha...because u can consider as my student too?? in my so called observations and all my theories in my life...just wanted to say thanks for the time and of course...hehe..your effort in sending me to here n there with you Ferarri...rite? hahaha...and for the trust too...hehe...

Last but not least...Iverine 'Sou Yan Yeng"

Iverine Saw...a soft hearted and always a dependent girl that counts on everybody when it comes to solving problems...will never ever try to solve anything by herself and needs people's assistance all the time! too dependent!! but.....it was the previous her....proud of you that you are really taking things all by your own now...even problems that might gave her a huge impact but still..she is able to face it all by herself..with a little of our advises and encouragement...know you have been through some rough time in the past...but you have grown up...and keep reminding yourself that every steps need to be taken all by yourself in order to work things out...i know u did keep in mind on some of my advises and you impressed me by telling me the same thing when i was facing my problem....i was shocked yet happy because u did remember my advise and u applied it to me when i was in the worst condition..haha...happy to know that...i can see that you don't have the mind that you used to be...grown up?? haha..u still have a long way to go girl...but i will guide u all the way alrite?? u stil have a long way to catch up~!! but anyway...wana say thanks....cuz u did really wake me up....appreciate it~~ huggss**

the changes from the young to a grown up

and this is the younger her..hmmm~~~ that is why i said..'i want to be young again' hahahah

ps: just kidding 38~~~

My Kiddos

2010-04-05T18:17:00.000-07:00

alrite..time to update about with my recent life..sick of those emo posts ey?? haha..gonna put more pics instead of words..yeah yeah..i know its boring and now....let me show you some of my kiddos' pics in my current life now...hahaha..let us start with my kiddos...

alrite...the pics above r my kiddos....stop the crap and its introduction time...!!! hahaha

the first...Usman Qazi...the very first person that amazed me with his thoughts and personality..its totally different person according to his outlooks...n never ever judge me a person by its outlooks cuz it might not be the fact..haha..and he taught me Urdu...hahaha...for example..'phan chot, kury chod' and many more..besides that..the very first person that addressed me as a pussy man!! wtf!! but like your honesty...and u never failed to cheer me up..thanks dude!!! hahaha...love ya~~ n...ahh..i knw its gay..but still...i love ya!! haha

next will be Ali Qazi...brother of Usman Qazi..haha...thought me alot of stuff about 'women' and it makes sense too..thanks for all the lecture and i can tel u that all ur advises reli works...im way better now compared to the old me...hahaha...i know you are a good lecturer in RPB subject..trying my best to score in your paper and i will never disappoint u..hahahah!!! thanks for everything Ali!!!

alrite there....this is the naughtiest kids among all of them...the one that keep on reminding me that im getting BALD!! and who is this guy?? of course....the only JASON FERNANDEZ!! thanks 4 concerning bout my hair everytime ya!!! damn....hahaha...a mysterious guy at the very first place but starting to get to know him and i found out that....HE HATES GAY!! hahaha..am i rite jason?? haha..and u guys can look for him if u have any probs..elwez a good listener and a problem solver..haha...neways..know you've been optimist all the time but plss....u can put down ur farking job n b one of us phan chod!!! hahaha...glad to have u in my life...cheeer~!! *fuck u...don think tat im gay*

and for this cute lil guy...he is pang yean...haha...look naive and innocent from the outlooks but..hahaha..hes a fox!! don blame me for being honest but stil...haha..ur still 1 of my favorite...u still have a long way to go mr pang yean...when u have reached the time..then only u will settle down..but don't ever involve urself in messy problems k?? don wana c u involve into anytin that will harm ya or wut...hehe...neways...thanks for being such a good kid to ur grandpa ya..love ya~~! EEUUUHHH!! hehehe

and now then i realized i don have a proper pic wif u HILARI!! haha..alrite..this is Miss Hilary...but we call her as HI LA RI~~!! as she is one funny gurl that talk so fast and couldn't listen to her pronunciation properly..hahaha..funny here...guess wut!! u wil knw when she is on her way as u can listen to her laughter from miles away!! unbelievable?? but believe it..hahaha...u will b shock to c her acting in a polite way cuz she never does!! hahaha..her trademark?? the 'V' 38 dou sei eh!! hahaha..neway...know your are stress with your studies and ur private probs..so jus cheer up alrite?? happy to have u to b my kid..haha....take care elwez and lovee yaaa HI LA RI~!! hugsss**

christine!! the cute lil girl that elwez stresses herself in onite..haha..wil never calm herself down with her bad performance in de training..but u did very well cuz u joined us in de sudden..haha...and of course..i cant reli treat u like my kid cuz we're in de same age..haha...so u'll b one their great grandma?? hahaha...alrite..thanks for everything too christine..cuz u did cheer me up when i was in a bad condition...n i will do de same thing too alrite?? buzz me~!! hugsss*

when it comes to this gurl...headache of course...cuz problems keep on rising in my mind when i think about her....hahahha..jus joking....Afina Kong..thats her name...a naughty gurl that nearly choked me to death all the time..but luckily i can hold myself...and im able to blog here...haha...a good and bad gurl...and loves jumping around although we're having our serious training!! harrr!!! hehe..alrite..know u did listen to ur so called seniors too...okieee?? hehe...alrite...that alll i can talk bout ya..cuz i don wana get myself killed...hehe...hugsss**

Padlock

2010-04-02T11:04:00.001-07:00

i have built the four tough walls surrounding me and come out with my own rules that will only let one person to enter my kingdom...but i have open the gate widely again...shit~~ couldn't control myself since it started to be messy again...no way~~!!

i want to make up my mind again...should have let one person and the only one....the one that really and willing to gain commitments. STAND FIRM and do your job...remind yourself that she is the one....and i know she is the one for me.. =) cheersss~~

Improvements

2010-03-29T18:59:00.000-07:00

I WILL NOT LET THE SAME INCIDENT HAPPEN ON ME TWICE....i thought i was tougher but actually i am not...haha....was suprised when i felt the same way once it poped out....was tired like hell but stil...couldn't make myself to bed...i thought everything is over?? i thought you are no longer existed....but in the end....i was just lying to myself....but glad that you changed it...and it is now a fact and all i can do is to face it....heartache.....upset....I CAN SENSE THAT I WAS A FOOL BACK IN THE PAST....

but i have just promised myself that i will not let the same incident happen again...by not standing here all the time without improving myself....thanks for everything...it was never a regret to me but stil...it was not a great memory....i can't even accept it can be that 'soon'....haha...

everthing is over and now...a new phase of life has jus begun.....and i will seek for achievements and improvements...to convince myself that i am not that weak...all the best.....

I did it

2010-03-23T02:35:00.001-07:00

proud of myself in making everythings clear...should be relieved since everythings over, no more guessing and no more dragging...but...darn~~ everythings gone...really gone...what do i want actually?? what the hell am i doing?? since i've made this decision and now i don like wad i've done...fuck myself...

well~~ shouldn be turning back rite?? since u told me to be myself and make everythings clear by setting up a thicker wall for myself..i did!!! haha...but i think i need time to recover everything...was so suprised that i was your consultant all the time but now...everything goes in de other way round...ur my consultant now~ haha..funny and i cant believe you are the one who wake me up...hmmm~~~

all i can do is to think of de way to talk me..'close your door and allow the only person u wanted her to enter into your heart' omg~!! hahaha...you are funny and cute...yet....i like it...hehehe...alrite..will stick to everytin tat u've told me..thanks anyway....

Back In Town

2010-03-09T12:03:00.000-08:00

hey folks~!! its been a while since i update about myself here...haha...and now...im back in town since everything has changed...glad that im back but...of course..been facing ups and downs these few months...just need to accept everything since it is a fact right??

everything has changed..my life, circle of friends and many more..its totally different from what it used to be...keep on telling myself that i can get back to my previous life...but.........hell noo~!!! should b proud of myself cuz i really cant do such thing anymore...cool~!! learnt a lot in the hardships~!! AND ITS REALLY A LOT!!

been buzy for the last few weeks..and its time to settle down...concentrate in my studies..and by the way..thanks for waking me up...from that day onwards....it is farking stupid to be stubborn and damn...NEVER EVER APPRECIATE OR PUT YOUR FARKING HOPES IN SOMETHING OR SOMEONE THAT WILL NEVER RESPECT AND APPRECIATE YOU~!!

cheerssss~~!!

Sunday

2009-11-22T11:28:00.000-08:00

semester break...suppose to be a realxing time for me, stayin in the best condition ever cuz spending time with my old frens and my family is wad i have to do right now...but...i stil can feel the emptiness rite now...am i expecting to much or hopin to get sumtin in return?? or im not doin my part like wad u required? a talk or a text would do...not even a minute? it does affect my emotion for the whole day...

woke up around 11 in the morning and the very first thing that comes to my mind is to check my cel...nothing in it...no text nor misscal...sigh~~but luckily mum and dad did acc me for the whole afternoon...like usual when im stil living in sandakan, breakfast, groceries shoppin and tea time..haha..talk a lot and made some funny conversations about affair...hahahaha

somebody called ah 4!! expecting to be de person i thought of but.......who de hell tat called?? Mr Billy Ng...haha..ask me to acc him 4 his brunch as he only woke up around 4 sumtin..omg..wad a lucky guy...haha..sat around and chat til we laugh like hell again..haha..luv talkin cock with him...

finally....movie screening!! but guess wut...i swear i wont step into Sandakan's cinema anymore!! the theater stinks so much!!...got bitten by mosquitoes (for the very first time)...uncivilised people chattin loudly in the cinema and it was freaking hot!! omg..it is the worst cinema ever!!

haha..move on to supper with all of them...haven seen them like ages like, Kelvin and Elix...jus came back from Sarawak...haha..glad to c u guys again...thought of goin home after supper but billy asked me to acc him until 3 as he wil start workin on 3..wad a weird time...so went to a cyber cafe and played a game of dota..haha

been a tired day..damn...gonna take a long rest after this...so chiaozzzz

It was just another day

2009-11-20T08:43:00.000-08:00

haha....stil, my own bed really made me buried in it..don feel like waking up when i looked at the clock showing me it 12.03pm...haha...just another ordinary day for me...but managed to get a hair cut around 2pm...

guess wut..it has been de longest period in my period to have a haircut....it took me nearly 4 hours to have my hair done...it was not crowded but....haha..my lady in life spent most of the time with the hairstylist....who is that important woman?? MY MUM...hehe..we went to have a haircut together but her hair too nearly 3 hours to get it done..omg...made de shortest cut ever...i cant believe i have the guts to cut it 'that' short...haha..but kinda like it...not completely done yet..so tomorrow stil nid to get back to the barber shop and finish the left over...will take some pics tomorrow...haha

when it comes to night...i have to look after myself as dad and mum need to attend their fren's wedding dinner...wad bout my sis?? oh yes...wedding dinner as well...made me nid to look for my own dinner...luckily i stil hav some besties here...Mr Billy Ng..my company of the whole nite..haha..had our dinner, a few games of billiard and continue with our yamcha session...

i just reached home and it is time for bed....gonna get my hair done again...hehe...show u some pic of me next time...new hairstly again...the shortest ever..haha..nite nite

Semester Break

2009-11-19T05:38:00.000-08:00

Semester break can be relaxing and depressing as well...haha...relaxing in terms of...sleeping all day long without any task that you must do...but depressing when the person u wanted to contact the most is missing in action...haha...hmph~~ it is time to get myself in a great shape as...my age starting with de digit 2*..damn im old..haha..need to prepare myself for the coming stage in my life...will be no longer a student life for sure...gosh im worried...

Tried out tennis today and guess wut...it is harder than i thought...it is totally different from wad i expected...badminton couldnt be applied in tennis but i did and hurted myself..damn..hurt my wrist and fell down bcuz of the slippery surface...ouch~! another day without any plans....

starting to miss my baby limeless so much...i bet she is sleeping for the whole day...haha...wad a pig...hmph~ i think tats de end for today...gonna sleep real soon...keep myself in de best condition ever...haha..alrite..will update my blog for sure..

*sorry for the boring blog again..will add some pic in de coming blog*

I MISS U BABEYY~!!!!!!! :(

My apology

2009-08-22T10:32:00.000-07:00

Not feeling so well today as i felt feverish...woke up around 12 and started missing my lime-less edy...wish you were here with me at that time...hehe...then wandered around my room and facebook of course...but i really cant stand it anymore after a few mins staring at the com...its freezing and i can feel the pain in my throat...its really killing me...texted my baby around 1.40pm...told her that im awake and about my health condition...she was having her facial but she replied..tellin me to look after myself...baby so sweet~~...haha...i replied but....sending failed...cuz my cel out of credit...haha..and that time it was raining like cats and dogs outside..so couldn't reload my cel..damn..so took my nap and only woke up around 5...a few missed calls from lime-less...at that very moment i was happy to know that she called...

After a few minutes she called again...haha...finally...our very first conversation of the day...but guess what did she say once i pick up...she was worried and angry for not replying her text msg earlier...oh my god...this is my very first time making my baby angry...scared of course cuz she sounds like killing me, in a soft way..haha...but i felt happy too cuz she really care about me...wuahahaha...but i know i've done something wrong..so i keep on saying sorry...kekeke...know u wont b angry for long..

i cant believe i would cam whore and post it out!!...but i hope it does make u feel better...hehe

I just want to let u know that i feel grateful because i do mean a lot to you...although i made u angry today but it proves that you do care about me so so much...haha...i promise i wont do it again alrite??...will be a responsible 'shit' like what u want me to be...keke...i am so happy to hav u here baby....and i willing to take the punishment...sigh~~...its like killing me for not meeting you for 1 day...but i did make you worried...hehe..besides that i know u do listen to me as u wan me to feel secure but sometimes ur jokes are...hehe..over the limitation...from the very first day i've promised to us that i will work things out to form a better life for us...i wont simply made any commitments if i don mean it...hehe...and u know i want you to stay with me all the time..thats why i don wana make a single thing that will make u unhappy k???...hehe...so took a few pics of myself..hopefully it will make u feel better...haha..love ya baby~!!

My love story..just for you

2009-08-20T22:47:00.000-07:00

It has been the best week ever...Last sunday until today...it was jus a few days but it was like years for me...would love to say thank you to God as time passes very slow when i was with my Lime-less...but everybody gets greedy when it comes to happiness right??...wish it would be infinity...i can't believe she would ever given me such a strong feeling...pursuasive and the most unbelievable thing is...she could control my temper!!...haha..what a suprised...i cant even control my own but she could...just a smile from her my temper will fade away...Cyprian Justin Lee has the confirmation again...nobody can ever made me turn into somebody else but my Miss Lime-less...glad to have you in my life baby...

Had fun in this whole week and we manage to understand each other a little bit more...haha..glad to know that you willing to sacrifice so many things for me...haha...i felt touched when u traveled all the way from Sunway to Nilai all by yourselves just to meet up...omg...believe me..i will appreciate our love so much...although there was a few discussion that made us nearly turn our heads back but im glad you would choose to go forward with me...i will never give you any disappointments...promise...as i believe in you and myself...i swear that forever from today...no one will ever take your place...i believe our love will last always...anything can happen if you just believe in our relationship...ok??

i never believe in miracle...as i think you need to work things out n put so much effort to make things become a miracle...but not until the day u agreed...its like a miracle for me...you know how do i look like at that time and until now..i cant even accept it...it is so...unbelievable..haha..Linda Koh Siew Hui is willing to give me a chance to be somebody to her...hahaha...my purpose of writting this blog is not trying to let everybody knows that i hav a girlfriend or wut...it is my proof to you that i want everybody to be the witnesses towards my love for ya...our commitments will stuck and it is sealed in my heart...there is not more loneliness but aloneness...aloneness of our world...im very grateful with our aloneness..once again...thanks baby...you will always be the one...de only one...love ya

this is how the story goes...

We had our very first conversation when i was facing some difficulties in my previous relationship...haha...had fun talking with ya as both of us love to crap alot...admit tat u luv my crap too!...keke..after our very first conversation in Msn...then we moved it to phone...its like every night..EVERY NIGHT!!...haha...then keep on crapping and teasing but...i luv all those craps n teases..haha..i've saved every conversations between us just for the sake of appreciation...i would listen all the conversations all over again when im free...i jus wont get bored of it...as it is something like 'energy booster'??...haha...abnormal ey??...haha..then move on to sending pics and video called..haha...had so so much fun....

then came to our first meet up...was so so anxious at that time..u told me u will 'zo zo' in front of me but...i don felt so..haha..u act naturally and just yourselves...at that very moment i can felt that your the one...but i din rush in this relationship..jus wish i can leave it goes on naturally...haha

finally....on the 17th of Aug 2009...she agreed to be my the other half...in a way of forcing..as she wants me to take initiative to tell her..damn anxious and i was fooled!!...hahaha...my hand sweating like hell...haha..but im glad that i've told her..then we had our very first step together on that day...hahaha...

from that day onwards we stayed side by side like almost everyday..haha..followed her to class then get back to our room in Nilai and Sunway..keke..sweetttt~!!!..muackss...here r some pics of us....

Luvya Baby Lime-less!!

17th of Aug 2009

2009-08-17T18:02:00.000-07:00

Finally...everything comes to an end...cuz she agreed!!!...haha..really finally...she understands wad i've been trying to do all the time...haha..but i really got fooled...fooled by her as she pretends she doesnt know anything..omg..cant believe i would fall for that..haha..let me tel lya de whole story....

17th of Aug 09, falls on Mon..we went to Midvalley for a meet up again...i showed up sharp at 12...but.....she managed to show herself at 12.20pm...suppose to be angry but i did not once i look at de impression on her face..haha..showing me her pity pity impression again..haha..damn..always fall for that...haha..then had a walk all around Midvalley and The Garden....we make ourselves comfortable and as if it was our house...talk so damn loud and keep on laughing like nobody's business...haha...went to eat sushi and it taste...erm...nice??...but she likes it..haha

having our lunch in The Garden

then we went to watch a movie called 'The Proposal' ...haha...smelled something fishy as she wana watch this movie...hmph~~...suspecting something at that time...haha..it was a nice movie but we manage to talk more than wathing the whole movie..keep on peeking each other to make sure both of us r not asleep...haha..cuz if one of us fall asleep, the other will giv a very huge slap in the face as a wake up call..kekeke..so we're not dare to sleep although we r so tired..keke..it has been a very tiring day but we had fun...then she followed me to Nilai..on the journey to Nilai...she kept on forcing me to tell her wad is my prob or wut...she knows but she stil act in front of me..ahahah..funny her....and because of that we missed the junction to Nilai and need to take a U turn in SEREMBAN!!

Forcing me to tell her something..haha

Finally...we reached Nilai and.....we confessed to each other and...hahaha...a new relationships has formed...haha..thanks Lime-less...cant believe this is happening to me..both of us r so excited...haha..anyway..we willl stil keep our commitments for sure...haha..so...that the end i think...n thanks 4 everyboyds wishes and support...thanks..

One step ahead

2009-08-14T20:49:00.000-07:00

Cyprian Justin Lee is having a great great time now especially at night...I love night time very much because...Miss Lime-less will be free...and at that moment is my very best time although its just a phone call or video call in Msn...I can admit that it has been a rountine in my life when it comes to night...naturally i will get your text msg or call and i might check on her whether she has reached home or wad...it is a part of my life now in looking after that Lime...haha...had a very meaningful conversation last night...telling each other about our personality and what do you feel towards our personality...haha...and probably indirectly spoken something that will make both of us happy or blush...can b considered the truth towards each other...

But as you know..she is kinda stupid to get the truth when it is spoken indirectly..she is more on straight forward kinda type =.=' ...i think she is not that really stupid until i need to say things clearly and make a huge announcement towards it...u did your part and i did mine too...as u know i love things to go naturally rite??...haha...but i am glad that u did your part...u understand my character and personality...u can sense most of the things although i hav never told you before..proud of you Ms Lime-less!!..haha

Happy we had the talk last night...finally..it was a very meaningful conversation that really boost me up...haha..will work hard for sure!!..promise k? and i really appreciate at what u hav done during my exam...as you know i need to talk to you before i enter the exam hall and u never disappoint me...stay awake early in the morning just to wait for my call although it was just a few minutes talk...or can put it in de other way round..probably u haven slept yet at tat time..wuahahaha...but stil...thanks a lot...felt better when talking to ya...

I know sometime i may doubt you even you are tellin me the truth but since 8th of Aug 2009...we had tied up to our promises and commitments...from that day onwards i will believe ever words that come out from your mouth..but sometimes just wana tease ya or wut thats why i may called u as a FAKER but her pronounciation is (FARK-KER)...haha..im just joking by de way...hahahaha...glad to have you in my life now...looking forward to see u...and you know i am missing you badly...

some funny picture of Ms Lime-less:

your favourite pose rite??...haha

haha..ate too much bread and u made urself look so chubby in the cheek..keke

u told me u look thin in this pic...but...u know...hiak!!

u look thin in this pic!!..wuahahah

your very first sales...RM 117...proud of you!!..haha

A night of disappointment and happiness

2009-08-09T20:07:00.000-07:00

Had the most peculiar day in de year of 2009...haha...like usual...on de phone with Miss Lime-less but our conversation was kinda awkward when suddenly somebody called her...and that person meant a lot to her in de past...he called..askin for help..although she rejected but i can feel that there is something bothering her...

Had a long talk wif her and suddenly...she said something unacceptable and LIT MY FIRE ON!!...but you know...cant really get angry with her when she sounds like a helpless rabbit that needed help so much...sigh~...lower down my tone and advised her...but as time goes by....that very cute and adorable rabbit TURNS INTO A TIGRESS..DAMN~~!!!

keep on saying something hurtful and probably she does not realise it hurts but she jus keeps it going..oh my god..at that very moment i was so so disappointed with the way she defends herself as she thinks there is nothing wrong or wut...but luckily.......she manage to cool me down and keep on lowering her voice as she knows im angry....rite Miss Lime-less??

haha...tried so hard to keep her happy and removed all the negative thoughts of her...a few hours time hav been used but managed to discard a lil bit of it...and i was full of anger with disappointments...as she never understand wad im tellin her..AAAHHHH~~!!

guess wut...stop our conversation verbally and changed to text msgs...haha...jus a few mins and a few text msgs of her....she cheered me up and demolish all my anger....curious bout wad did she say in the text msg ey??...haha...not gona tel u guys as its kinda private but u can sense it as i've already used de word 'demolish'...sounds persuasive but it reli does...haha...neway...thanks 4 being so patience alrite??..u know im kinda bad tempered but u stil manage to shed my tempered away..wad a suprised...haha...anyway she is Miss Lime-less...

some of my favourite pics of her....

MA FAVOURITE~~!!!..HAHA

*Promises were made and i will chop your head off if u break those promises..haha..u may chop mine as well if i break them..haha*

My own box of excitement and happiness

2009-08-02T18:21:00.000-07:00

hey hey..im back to bloging..hem...feel like sharing my current life now...jus a week time before my final..my last 2 papers to move on..haha..hope everything will be fine..did study for it...but u know..im suck in my calculations...haha..i will try my best for sure..of course..

i can say that im living in my own box tat fill me with excitement and hapiness...haha..dono why i jus like my current life now..did nothing much but keep on facebook-ing and of course crapping with Miss Lime-less..that is the name she had given to herself...she managed to cheer me up when i was in a bad condition...all her lame and stupid jokes jus make me to put aside my problems..then when time goes longer and we manage to know each other for a lil bit more...we kinda share things in common especially in relationships...both of us r such a failure in relationships...but she did her very very best as a great girlfriend but the thing is nobody does appreciate her...pity her...and i was totally the other way round of her...haha..to my suprise i dono she would ever face such a thing..so i can say that we did share things in common..lots of funny experience we had been through although its jus a few weeks time...

we..or probably say 'she' came out with lots of stuff like:

Lime-less (impolite)

Kopi sai (thats me..Sai is my name n de kopi means Copy as she thinks that i luv to copy her pattern)

HANG HOOI~~!!..HAHAH (in cantonese..get de hell out of here!!..haha)

conversation recorded and...'eh..i knw u record our conversation again'..haha

cantonese lecture..(im de lecturer of course)

OA..orang asli..duh..(very obvious...ur can b called as OA wut Pontian Kia~~!)

Cam whore~!! (bored?...cam whore de whole day..215 pics man!!)

web cam n video call....funny~~!!! (haha...metal, pig n de last thing...FARK!..de international sign..haha)

ding ding dong dong (stupid..bodoh)

diarrhoea (hahahah..tis is funny...Boss- lou sai)

and many more.....haha...she is jus so funny and i would like to say thanks...thank you so so much..u were there when im facing probs and so on...n i did my part to help ya as i know how u felt as i've tried it be4..hahaha...jus feel happy when ur here wif me..crapping and bullshits almost of everything...hahahha...n those pics tat u sent when i was so damn moody..reli cheer me up..cuz u purposely took a very pic of urs to cheer me up...thanks 4 it..appreciate it..haha..thanks Miss Lime-less!!

Some of my Masterpiece

THANKS MISS LIME-LESS~~!!!..HAHAHA..KNW U GONNA KILL ME AFTER U SEE THIS POST!!..WUAHAHA

Pranky Nite

2009-07-21T12:46:00.000-07:00

wow...it has been a very fun n exciting nite...alrite...i got punk'd..haha...here how de story goes...

dono y i feel like being alone 2day so called up to her n told her i wana hav my private time..same goes on n on she keeps on askin y...n as u know im kinda bad tempered so raised up my voice a lil bit on de fon wif her...finally...she leave me alone...so i keep on fb-ing n around 11 sumtin...sum1 called...

a fren of her called- Cyprian..where ru??...ester got bumped by a car and she is having a serious injury now n sent to a hospital called Ampang Puteri Hospital and nid to b operated...

i was like....wtf....in my mind at tat very moment how can things can happen easily???..i din reli trust at tat moment..so having a clear thought i talk to her fren...

ester's fren- wad'd u done to her??...y she is so upset n ran out of her house after reading ur blog??

come on...if u wana know y don u read my blog then??..i told her...n things goes on n on...her ex called...tellin to b careful and he gonna make me pay 4 tis incident...at tat time im goin to take a hand cream as u know im 'ALLERGIC TO BULLSHITS'...haha..din reli care wad did he say...

but their acting reli scares me as they sound so serious...luckily sum1 came to help..guess who she is...hahaa..SHIN HUI is de saviour of the day!!...thansk to her..she has done me a big favour..googled every hospitals in ampang and sent it to me through text msg..haha...of course i wanted to find out the truth so i called every hospitals to look 4 her record...guess wut...no record of hers in all de hospitals tat i've called!!..wow!!

ester's fren n ex- she nid an operation as her injury is very serious and a large amount of blood type O needed...

wtf.....is a patient is having an operation in a hospital....there wont b any record in tat hospital??? sounds stupid rite???...haha...but stil..i put my trust in her til i confirm everytin...called those hospitals again and ask 4 de recent patient tat were sent 2 hours ago...not even a case tat matches her situation...n tat very moment i feel like killing sum1...alrite i got punk'd

made my final decision...change my status in facebook without giving her a notice...CYPRIAN JUSTIN LEE IS SINGLE AND AVAILABLE AGAIN....been a tiring nite...but fun when u achieved de victory in ur hand...,haha...as if like im playing games..haha...

how can a adult hav these kinda thoughts anyway??...told her and her frens not to treat me as a kid as im younger than them...im not stupid k??...told u 4 hundred time...IM NOT STUPID!!!..u guys r like even younger than me in mind....haih...disappointment of course..cant believe i would fall for tat...but i can find out de truth in a glimpse of eyes..haha..im not so stupid and naif anyway...

Ps: know u gonna read my blog..tis msg is for u...don b a jerk next time...u wana get her back??...do it legally...now i've released her but stil..she wont get back to ya...darn

My life in hell

2009-07-21T06:30:00.000-07:00

i dono y relationships keep on bothering me..im not only saying bout love of course...jus made me living in hell now...damn damn damn...rather lock myself in de room...instead of goin out wif lots of 'rifle, arrow, bomb, anytin sharp' that wil fly towards me...do i look like a target 4 u guys??..dono y...born to hav those faces i think...haha..wadever..not reli important anyway..

sigh~~..being emo these few days...im not sure wad'd happened but i know..sumtin hav happened..i jus don wana make it explosive...but im not sure whether that prob reli exist or not...haha...complicated ey??..its reli confusing as well but it does ruin my day...i've told myself that my next relationship would b de last for me...but...i tried n tried n tried..its jus doesnt feel de right way..i dono why..so i keep on askin myself..r u stil here wif me??..i can definitely say no...its jus sumtimes being emo when i had a lil alcoholic drink...haha...but i know ur not the main prob..

***Shy yi...i reli wana say thank you for being understanding and giving me a chance to release all my stress...im relieved...i dono y u wil pop out everytime when im havin my worst time...as if u know im in a very very bad condition...i was so touched tat even ur in UK or US or where ever u r..u wil stil find ur very best way to keep contact wif me..oh my god...when i pick up ur fon i was like...finally...sum1 is here for me...u wont make feel tat im an ass...although everybody does think like tat..u wil only make me laugh n smile n being crazy...haha..spending a great time wif ya only on de fon...wish u were here wif me n observe my farking life im into now...pls pls pls...come back earlier n do take care of urself ya...only u can make me smile...thanks 4 de cal....missya***

hem...wad is the prob anyway??..being with sumbody tat u don reli luv...i got it..tats the main thing...wads happening to me??..i've keep on making wrong decisions after that incident...1stly...a gurl tat i know from a club..not those kinda club but a club or society in inti...manage to get well wif her..but ended up...shes not de 1...darn..nvm...

then another gurl...like wad u guys called her as Miss N...kinda work things out but...stil...shes jus being too much of herself...everytin in her ways 'ONLY'..n she thinks that shes dominating de relationship..alrite...u dono who ru messing wif young lady...finally ur turn...u gave me alot of comfort n i know u understand me alot...trying to b de best of all...but wad i felt...

i don like to date wif my mobile......

i don like to b disturbed in a few hours time....keep on callin n callin!!!

i don like to b informed of wad my gf is up to...y cant u tel me?? (ur housemates, ur ex, ur fans, wtf!)

i don like u to keep on thinkin nonsense stuff cuz of 'i din pick up de fon'

i don like 'oh..im in nilai edy'...after a few mins...'ohh im on my way back'
come on..its like very obvious......don lie to me

i don like 'oh ya...i can b considered a pretty so do watch over me in case sumbody grab me away from ya'...my god...

if a person reli luvs sum1..im sure he or she wil tolerate n try to work things out...rite??..probs wil b solved instead of throwing it aside or wut...but for me..i find it reli reli IRRITATING AND ANNOYING!!!!!!....U REMIND ME OF SUM1 THAT GAVE ME THOSE FEELIN BUT AT LEAST SHE BETTER...

i've never felt so so...................AAAHHHHH~!!!!.......
not de time yet to involve myself in any relationship...

but it jus keep on coming!!!...hahaha..not trying to say anytin but...it reli does...haha...we'll c who wil b de next then...hehehe

ps: soli guys...i dono wad kinda of deco or pics should i put in a post..bare wif me..wont come out wif a 'fully word' post again...promise..hehehe

U recalled my memories

2009-07-18T11:31:00.000-07:00

it has been a relaxing day..doin de same thing everyday...but when it comes to nite..a fren nudge me..tellin me bout her probs wif her bf...n guess wut...it recalled my memories...i started to c 'her' again in everytin...its like everytin...went out 4 a fresh air...n its even worst...i look at the car parked...a car is missing...a car tat used to bring hapiness to me...but it jus drove off...n it wont come back anymore...i keep on tellin myself...its over...its reli over...a voice called out from de bottom of my heart...'i don wish to end'......but no choice...now i reli understand de feelin of loosing sum1 important in ur live...like wad de movies elwez say, if u luv sum1, jus let her find her hapiness..shes hapi n u'll b hapi too...n i know shes havin her happiest life now when he appeared...seriously...no hatred on u bro..instead i felt sorry 4 her 4 wasting her 2 years time wif me..if she met u earlier...she wouldn b suffering so much...thanks 4 makin her happy again...thanks bro...

probably its not de time yet...i shouldnt involve myself in any relationships...its my prob...once again..i've made a wrong decisions...is reliability n love hav de same meaning??...am i living too much in memories??..APPRECIATION...i reli wish i would appreciate wad i used to hav...i reli wish de time would stop moving forward...but no such thing will happen...i lost my keys 4 several times...im so anxious bout it..i don wish to lose it..its not de keys i wanted de most..but the moon..the moon has been seperated 4 nearly a year..it wont b a full moon anymore...but stil...half of it remain in me...i rather keep de only thing 4 myself...de 1 and only thing...

cyprian justin lee nyit loong!!!!!..b tough my fren...there wont b miracle happend on ya..as u've done too much sins...tis is wad u get as a punishment...and ur doin it again as u know who u wanted de most......theres gonna b a hardships in every relationships..once u've got beaten once..there wont b any victory again...so wad??!!!...stand on ur feet again n fight!!!!!!

Betrayal

2009-06-30T09:20:00.000-07:00

i've messed up everytin...owning something that would bring benefits for myself...betrayal had happened in my life..betray myself for my own benefits and i know it would bring sadness and probably trouble to myself and the other side....im turning into somebody that i barely dont understand...everybody will definitely say 'NO' and 'you are an ass for doing such a thing'......but i've made up my mind...i will never turn back like wad i used to do..cuz i know there wont b anything tat wil giv u another chance...even when u know u hav done something wrong n u wish to turn it back but....de answer wil be no......

So....im hoping for a miracle to happen once im walkin along this path..probably it wil turn out to b....genuine....i hope it reli does...im sure that im doin this is jus for my benefits....n im doing something that will b hurtful...im sick of the opinions and impressions on wad people is lookin at me...since i hav these kinda impressions for u guys...y don i make it obviously??..probably u guys will shut up if i make it to de worst?? i know it wont happen anyway....cuz....cyprian lee is like wad the others said...

im sick of proving myself...if u wan it tat way...ill show u tat way and im doin de worst of all now!!..betraying myself for my very own benefits...but stil..i can say that im scare of myself...y would i ever think of these stuff when i know its wrong...i can feel de goose bumps when i think of it...its jus so scary..one step forward...n there wont b turning back...

i hope everytin wil turn in a better way.......pls pls pls...i don wana b hurtful...n i wont ask for forgiveness from u if u found out 1 day....

Killing Spreee!!!

2009-06-02T10:36:00.000-07:00

Attention!!!...this is de last view of Yo Yo (Yuen Li@Shirley's dog) as im GONNA KILL IT RITE AWAY...any last wish for Yo Yo??...OMG!!!...tis dog is so so annoying n keep on barking in de middle of the nite....luckily Yuen Li was sleepin last nite if not im gonna dump Yo Yo at de rubbish bin downstairs...im not sure y would tis dog luvs to stay awake and wont get tired...n keep on distrubing everybody....any interested??..im gonna sell u tis dog..for...erm...RM 20...haha..better than RM 10 at least..not tat cheap...

Ps: Yo Yo..i do appreciate ya..look at de price i offered to the market..RM 20 bucks
man!!!...haha..anyway..jus jokin...hopefully Yun Li wont notice my blog...but serious...i do wana kill tis dog or keep her mouth shut...damn annoying n torturing...HELP ME ANYONE!!!!!!

LOOK AT HER!!!..FEEL LIKE SQUEEZING HER TIL SHE CHOKED!!...DAMN..hehehe...jus jokin...im not so cruel to animals actually..kekek

Peculiar day

2009-05-30T15:56:00.000-07:00

hem....30th of may 2009 had been a very very peculiar day for me...jus felt strange when de clock reached 12am..hahaha..not tat spooky but everytin started when i had a cal wif a fren...a special fren of mine...she is in UK now n we chatted through msn with our ear phone although we have different time zone..haha..we chatted for...erm..let me count..from 3am to 8am!!..haha..5 whole hours man!!..omg...from our conversation i can sense that she had grown up...not de lil baby tat i used to see that couldnt handle anything when problems occured..in tat case...i felt kinda happy for her but...i think i nid time to get used to it as i treated her differently from de others...shes a kid for me n i concern bout her so much...treated her jus like my lil baby...haha..but not now anymore...shes getting old....kekeke...anyway..glad tat u've grown matured...reli happy to c tat...so im sending my best wishes to ya Shy Yi...take care...

Cadee..Shy YI

after that....had my dinner wif elvin n wei chiat....been discussing sumtin n de topic is about 'a player'...player in relationships....haha..yeah yeah...they were takin me as their topic again on the dinner table..but..they did point out sumtin...sumtin on de behaviour of a boy..trying to get sumtin from a gurl....n de way a boy acted..for me it is normal and probably gentleman but....it cant be applied in malaysia as..what they said 'malaysians r stil conservative!!...u treated them that way u may make them missunderstand'...besides that..u guys luvs to keep on talkin bout the past..im not sure wads de intention but..u guys jus luv it...(guan seng, JN82 and many more)..although im immuned to it but..haha..im not cold blooded n im not taking tat relationship as a game..stil hav feelin on it, assholess...hem...get back to the gentleman thing...i've never thought of it...cuz every boys may treat a gurl like tat rite???...haih...haha..anyway..thanks 4 de whole nite of 'lecturing'...haha

after that came back n sat in front of my laptop..facing it doin nothing n recalled on what they said...n it confused me a lot~!!!...aahhh...don care...so go on downloading songs...come across a song called 'about you now' from sugababes...hem..should b a nice song bcuz i kinda like sugababes...downloaded it n i listen to the lyric...to my suprised tis song is de answer for all my probs....i cant reli describe de feeling but it did recall lots of memories and...this song is more on turning back with their loves one....but i prefer walking straight and this song is giving encouragement to go ahead, march forward!!.........'and now i reli know...how i feel about you now'....

Mr Elvin EE
Mr Oh Wei Chiat

THANKS BROS!!!

wad'd passed had passed..i will not bring yesterday back around....although i know

how i feel about you now...but it is jus a feeling and a feeling can be stored forever...not being together but the feeling of keeping you aside...thanks...tis song is de key for everything...haha...elvin!!!!...wei chiat!!!!!!!!!!!....i understand wad r u guys trying to say!!!!!!!!!....thanks thankss!!!!

i miss both of u!!

2009-05-09T02:34:00.000-07:00

i miss both of u so so much!!..although been callin u guys through fon but jus wish to get back to sandakan and go out with u guys again..haha...i cant believe that u guys can see things through my heart..yes..gor gor is suffering from some probs but gor gor promise will be fine when i get back on aug k??...haha...look young from de outside but was so suprised that both of u can read my mind..haha..guys let me intro my younger bro n sis...hahaha

shes yee yee..my cute lil sister tat luvs to eat ice cream a lot...although i cant reli understands her language cuz...she has her own language...keke..funny lil yee yee but to my suprised...she pop out a ques tat amazed me a lot and shes only 7!...'gor...y u look so unhappy when everytime u watch a happy ending love story?' hem..in my opinion there wont be such a happy ending in reality..n of course..she came across my mind...'gor probably u and you another jie jie quarrel..so jus say soli to her..everytin will b fine, nah..ill give u my ice cream'...omg...shes jus.....my favourite..haha..

kelvin...yee yee's elder bro...tat luvs to eat anytin tasty n he does respect so so much..not like other kids tat do not respect de elder...haha...im not sayin im de elder but at least im older than them rite??..haha...guess wut...he tought me how to wash my own shoes man!!..omg...cuz i usually throw my shoes to my maid or anytin..but...we had fun while washing our shoes..n my water guns r taken out from my store room after a few years hibernating in tat room...haha...kidss..i jus luv kidss..keke..im very very sure i dono how to wash my own shoes when i was 10..haha

gor is coming back on aug....promise wil b fine when gor get back k??..luv u guys!!!

CYPRIAN IS BACK!!!!!!!!!

2009-05-05T04:51:00.000-07:00

hahahahahaha.....finally school started and i have to get back to inti..damn...i miss sandakan so so much...wish to stay there cuz its really really relaxing....that is why the proverb of home sweet home existed..haha..now then i understand...hem...once i step into nilai...the first thing that came across my mind was.................damn! i nid to clean up my room!!!...haha...jus got back for 2 weeks and my room is full with dust...haha..im not sure how does it look like if i take de longest holiday..

but i jus dropped my luggage once i reached inti cuz rushing for enrollment...hey..im kinda satisfy with the new sem's students...know how dress up n look good...im talkin on both sex...gurls n boys...haha...not bad not bad...at least not those nerds n bookworms tat used t have in inti...hehe..

finally...de toughest part of the day....room cleaning...haih..used a few hours to clean up everytin...while im cleaning...found lots of my old stuff n some stuff tat do not belong to me...so...at tat time...i was thinkin whether i should keep it wif me, put it aside or jus throw it away....been bothering me de whole day...keep it 4 memories or wut..or put it aside in one of de corner of my room...at tat very moment i hav never thought of throwing it away...heemmmmmmmm

guess wut...i threw them away...i don want them to keep on reminding me tat i used to hav a very very and understanding person beside me tat keep me accompany everytime and forgive me for every mistakes that i've done...my mistake for not appreciate her rite??...yeah ryte....so i jus throw it away n make me awake from these torturing moments...i don wana screw up my life again....i jus did..a few months time..but not now!!!!!!...i swear to my family n myself...i wont disappointed u guys again!!!!!!!!!...i promise....

i will keep my promises as i can feel the disappointment when someone tat i trusted the most lied at me n never keep her promises....so.......learn from mistakes???...yeah...thanks lot...u turn me into a better man....awake from greed n laziness...although its a very torturing moment...but finally......i can c de consequences when u apply those negative habit in ur life...u wil loose everytin....i did...i reli did...so its my time to get it back.....but not the same old thing..something that wil improve my life....

IM BACK!!!!!!!!!..................CYPRIAN IS BACK!!!!!!!!!

the current cyprian

2009-05-02T01:33:00.000-07:00

am i dead??...neh!!!..stil surviving here but nearly die..haha..emr..had been de worst sem ever n i screwed up everytin!!!..n i screwed up de most in my studies..everytin nid to b put aside by now..don feel like torturing myself anymore..din do it in purpose but jus elwezs look back n hoping 4 a new hope everytime...last sem??..yeah rite..next sem gonna b my last sem again...felt so so sorry 4 my family in disappointing them again n again...by now should b half way in my path but im stil stuck in de starting line...

went back to sandakan in my sem break...so every1 knows bout it n to my suprise they din even laugh or talk bad bout me as sandakan luvs to gossip n spread things wildly...im kinda touch when my family n my frens 4 being supportive all de time..thanks mum n dad..both of u reli gave me a great time in tis 2 weeks holiday...i promise tat i wont let u guys down again..i mean it...

so....ill leave it here 1st..time to go to church...haha...ill update my blog again...heee..cyprian is alrite now...u wont c de dead cyprian again...

Orientation Nite Jan 09

2009-02-24T06:28:00.000-08:00

hem..jus got back from rehearsal..cant stand it anymore..not bcuz of too many works but everytin flashed back into my mind when ur de organising chairperson 4 an onite..i don hav de courage to stay there 4 long..wad'd got into me??!!...but i think things wil get to normal when time passes..i jus nid time...so wish me luck every1...

3 tests 2molo n i stil nid to go 4 de rehearsal..damn..kinda bored wif onite edy but no choice..used to quarrel like hell 4 onite..haha..did recall lots of stuff..dono y everytin wil jus pop out in mind when im in nilai..especially my apartment tat im living in..

'if u reli luv her, jus set her free'...i did..but i cant set myself free at tis moment..probably jus at tis moment...no1 reli understands me...Cyprian= danger n player...FARK U GUYS MAN!!!!!!!!!...JUS SAY IT IN FRONT OF ME N DON GOSSIP WHEN I WAS NOT AROUND!!...SHOW ME UR FARKING PROVE THEN!!

im stil me...no1 wil ever understand me...only me myself..n u...

11th of Feb 2009

2009-02-09T20:57:00.001-08:00

I used to call you my girl...
Iused to call you my friend...
I used to call you the love...
The love that I never had...

You were all that I want...
You were all that I need...
Can you see how i feel...
Can you see that my pain...so real...

When I think of you...
I don't know what to do...
When will I see you again...

I miss you like crazy...
Even more than words can say...
Every minute of everyday...
I am so down when your loves are not around...

Im gonna miss you.....

heart killer

2008-10-03T12:22:00.000-07:00

trick shot in nilai- u were my 1st student in pool..haha..u looked so funny when u hold de cue..was so bad tempered when i thought u at de 1st time..haha..so soli..not dare to go there anymore...u did take some pic 4 me...all my poses...haha

inti's cyber cafe- went there when both of us do not hav our laptop with us..feeding frenzy??..haha..u intro tat game to me..nearly throw the mouse cuz its reli a hapenning game..n im not dare to stay there 4 a long time..

mosque in inti- our 1st date??..should b..used to sit there n chat til very very late...haha..spend most of our night time there..hanging around n being silly..stil remember i hold ur hands very tight n spin u around..haha..if theres no important things..im sure i wont step into hostel area..

behind dining hall- u cried there..apologising 4 makin me suffered...haha..soli 4 not considering ur feelings..forcing u to make a hard decision..but u made it at last..thanks 4 de chance...chat bout our future in dining hall..tat time i knew u were de 1..de only 1..i swear i wont go to dining hall..i don hav de courage to b there

behind de swimmin pool- we had a great time there..being ourselves n chat wadever we can...u elwez say wana go 4 a walk n tat is our place..haha..i know u luv it..although we're feeding de mosquito but we don care..haha..u took my winston there..made me a small box of cigarette..i stil hav it wif me...thanks 4 de effort..but i couldnt stand it..smoke in de end...soli 4 giving u such a big disappointment...

sports hall- haha..caught me smoking when i was havin a break...u din say anyitn..but i know u suffered so much...im so soli..start from 26th of sept...u left me on tat day...n i smoke even more...i reli don wana b alone..when im alone ill think of so many things...

pontian- my favourite place in west malaysia...guan seng, cool!!..ah po..the best!!!..tian hai..had a hokkien mee there..its delicious 4 me..ur dad's office..de 1st time i hav a face to face wif those oil palm..did help ur parents wif those bills...miss them so much..temple..was treated like a superhuman there..haha..ur house...i do hav my own room there...JN82...not taking u 4 granted...but i reli do miss de time v spent in de car..i miss pontian..but i don hav any courage to go there..promise ur bro to go there..but i know i've made an empty promise..soli...

my room- empty..empty n empty..memories r stil wif me..i reli don wish to stay in tis house anymore..i cant stand de pain...evertin here reli reminds me of ur existence..u cheered me up..u gav me hope...we worked together...u tought me maths..we spent most of our time in our house..a warmth feeling...but..........u took it back..everything...

melaka- went to melaka few days ago..butterfly park???...crocodile farm??...got fed up wif ah ku's drving??...n here comes a shocking news from a lady...tat time ur so disappointed...starting to pull out ur love slowly n slowly...may i turn back the time??

genting- our last trip was in genting..hem..kinda had fun...was having all those question mark in my mind...y u act differently??..expected...but...til now i also cant accept it...im so soli..i lied at u tat i wil recover soon...but i dono when wil de wound will be healed...only u hav de med..but i know..u've thrown the med away..

sentul- i've jus known a fren from sentul...when she told me shes from sentul..i cant even hold my thought n tears...memories in sentul keep on flooding in..i was clubbing at tat time..erm..yesterday i think...in maison....

02 oct 2008, 11.43pm..i received ur msg..tellin me ur last n final decision...i reli don wana make u suffer..i willin to let u go...cuz..u wil never put ur trust in me again..i can feel it...i've never pulled out my trust in u..i jus cant stand to c my love...is walking away from me...u know im a very bad tempered person...but my bad tempered made u walked even faster...trust?? been together 4 2 years..no trust??..ur weird...a big disappointment...

wana giv a special thanks to all my frens, especially elvin and gary...thanks bro...u were there 4 me when i was weak...u accompanied me most of de time...but...its reli hard 4 me to get healed...special thank to ka yinng, spendin ur time although ur in uk now..thanks...thanks sis..luvya elwez...called me so many times to check on me...appreciate it alot...thanks mum n dad...although dad's msg is kinda sacarstic...but..i know u jus wan me to hapi...n 1 more person i wana say thanks...ur elwez there wif me when im down...thanks ming wei...

i wana confess myself...i told u guys im ok...cyprian is a hapi go lucky guy ma..no problem la~!!...i lied...i reli cant stand de feelings...i reli nid a big big plaster....

u jus walked away...din even turn back...ill b here standing...n charge all the way by myself...miss u

everything has come to an end

2008-09-26T04:05:00.000-07:00

once it is torn, it wont be combined anymore..but i don wish tis sentence is true..expected we would end up tis way, but stil...i cant accept it...expectation doesnt mean u'll hav a wise acception..26 of sept 2008..would b a nightmare 4 me..i reli hope there wil not b 26th of sept!!..when tis new semester started..i found out sumtin tat can relax me so much...is to be alone..sittin in bistro..relaxing urself wif a cup of teh o ice..lookin at de environment..relaxes me a lot...i did de same thing too 2day (26 sept)...automatically u wil pop out in my mind..theres no more relaxation 4 me at tis period..making myself bz n tired would be de best thing ever..have to be extremely exhausted, can sleep directly without anything in mind...

i don hav a single hatred on u...not even a bit...ill b de asshole if i stil keep u by my side...should be thankful to hav u to b my piggy once in my lifetime..all the forgiveness tat u've given..reli flood my eyes wif tears..should b hapi 4 u cuz ur gonna start a new life soon..4getting all de bad memories here..18th of jan 2008..stil remember??..sumtin bad happend to both of us...u got disappointed..i lost a bunch of frens..but de important thing was i've hurted u badly..im so sorry 4 tat..

its reli torturing to let u go..like in my 1st post..my room is so empty without u..now my whole farking life is so empty without u...not trying to take things 4 granted but i reli felt so...de time now is 7.12pm, 26th of sep 2008, clement went back, kok went to work...if nothing happened i would b in pontian wif u now..resting at home..i've lost sumtin valuable...i couldnt get it back 4 sure..jus let it b..time will fade everything..hopefully it reli does...

thanks 4 all de sweet memories...i cant cal u baby or dear anymore...not even ur nickname..fei po ling..i will locked these in my heart..now..2molo..until my last breath..but i reli hope things wil change..not tis endin..i've told u tat ur de last n i mean it..can i tel u sumtin??..3rd of dec will b de happiest day in my life...i've registered a vacation 2 hk...only both of us...haha..but now...yeah..stil there wil b 2 person goin..but its gonna b my parents...a suprise turn into a tragedy...

all i wan from u is to live hapily...do remember to eat...n a special msg to yen ling...do take care of her..she wont eat anytin when shes alone...do acc her 4 de 3 meals...gastric is her worst nightmare..so...thanks hl...i can only meet u...in de pics...n our sweet memories...thanks 4 being such a good gf..wil b rite here..waiting 4 u to say yes again...take care n luvya..

sandakan from de outlooks but innerlooks r kuala lumpur??!!

2008-08-18T03:36:00.000-07:00

hahaha...in my lovely hometown now...but 1 thing that reli shocked me was...let me start from de 1st step i arrive sdk on sunday..reach here exactly at 10.20...parents came to pick me up and was so so hapi to c my mum...

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tis is my mum..haha..stil in her cute lil chubby body posture...haha..a huge hug n kisses were given..whaha..

then straight to a place called indah jaya for my breakfast...when i reached there, wad a suprise was the whole indah jaya was so so so dead!!!!!...it used to b a family day...crowded with families and uncountable ppl walking around...no cars...no ppl...no no no!!...weird rite??..damn..besides thats it was a shocking news tat price of foods in sdk had increased...beef noodle was RM3.50 when i was stil here..n when i reached sdk tis time my favourite beef noodle increase to RM5.50 per bowl!!!..omg..its reli taking my breath away..wad is happening in sandakan???...let me guess...bcuz of de increament of petrol price..everybody is takin de increament 4 granted!!..damn...its hard to find a beef noodle at RM5.50 in nilai or johor...sigh...

but jesselton is stil jesselton...my favourite cafe in sandakan..stil in de same price and feelin comfortable when im in it...im in jesselton now...enjoying and relaxing myself with a cup of ice americano and a choc moist cake..haha..yummy....here r some pics of jesselton coffee..haha

how do u guys think about it??..haha..do come to sandakan n gimme a cal..ill b ur tour guide n im sure u wont regret 4 coming to sdk..haha..then in this sem break..i think im gonna spend most of my timein jesseton coffee...haha...anyway..got to go now..dad waiting 4 me at home..4 my dinner..opppsss...its 7.16 now...gonna b late..haha..ill update u guys again ya..do gimme some time..haha..bye bye!!!

back but not back

2008-08-16T12:17:00.000-07:00

finally..exams over!!!..haha..felt tired after my exam but managed to clean de whole house n my room all by myself until 11 something..its not itring at all but de cleaning relaxed me..weird huh??..haha..its 3.19am now n i have to get awake at 5am as i hav a flight to catch at 7.15..where am i heading to??..haha..of course to my lovely hometown...SANDAKAN!!!..feeling excited to meet my parents after a few months in nilai...yeah ur rite..a mummy's boy huh??

goin back soon but im goin to be far from my baby..don feel like goin back actually n i never plan to go back on tis sem break!!..cuz of my stupid weak body tat made me sick seriously 4 almost 3 to 5 daysss, worried by my family and forced to go back...hemm..shouldnt use de word force..haha..but...i can feel de distance..getting far from each other if i get back...or mayb its jus de 1st few days after u've left me behind??...i do wish to overcome it as its reli hurting me a lot..

alone again at home...stil remember de sofa my dear??..u were helping me with my grey hair..setting de price of RM1 for each of my grey hair..haha..let me tel u 1 thing..jus let me owe u as much as i can so that i can pay my debt in my lifetime...im willing to use my entire life to pay u my debt so that i can b with you all de time...im surely miss u...when im not with you..do take good care of urself and bcome my baby tat i used to know...NO DIET FOR U MAAAMMM!!!...if u get thinner when i meet ya...u will b dead..haha...

ill b goin back soon...but far from my baby...ill miss u my dear...muacksss...BACK BUT NOT BACK....

the torturing moment

2008-08-15T10:50:00.000-07:00

GOD....please bless me 2molo for my paper..i know i will only turn to u when problem is rite in front of me..im so soli 4 that but i reli wish u can send me your blessingss...im about to sit 4 my exam later at 8 to 10 continue with another at 5 to 7..im trying my best now to review on what i've revised but...my mind is totally blank now!!...pls pls pls...

tis is de 1st time...struggling in my studies..as i know i can handle theories..but not at this moment..omg!!!..what should i do...if u were here with me...i bet i wont b tat stress..giving me ur support would b de med to cure everything...look at ur pic wil make me smile..look at my room will bring emptiness..if possible i wish to move to hostel when ur finally go to aus...anyway...its 2am sharp...time to stick my butt to the chair again..

envy envy envy...ah kok, hes playing computer games now..haha..enjoying himself after de war..but 1 thing i got touched by him..he said:

kok: eh..studying ah??..aiyooo...im very sien...dono waad can i do after exam..haih...

cyprian: damn u...no choice...

kok: aih..since i hav nonthing to do..ill accompany u til 8am. although i don nid to sit 4 my exam 2molo..ok mou??

cyprian: haha...bullshit la u!!

until now..hes stil awake..usually he wont b awake at tis time..such a good asshole..haha...opppsss...talk too much...time to go!..haa..

he is the man...adrian aka ah kok

when i turn my back from you

2008-08-14T11:10:00.000-07:00

14 of aug..exactly at 1.56pm...i've spent not more than a minute staring at your face...one last hug before u leave...its reli killing me..de hard feelings that suddenly popped out from my heart when i walked straight to the elevator...from that second i can felt the lonesome was jus right in front of me...im not dare to look at u 4 more than a minute..i know i cant manage to overcome the feelings of getting stabbed by a knife..i chosed to walk straight and without looking back and say goodbye...once i got back...the room is so empty without u...parts of my stuff were in the room...wheres urs??...wheres ur dirty clothes??..wheres ur cosmetics??...and where is ur small piggy pillow??...they will not appear in my room anymore..the whole house is empty..the emptiness keeps on flooding in...yeah..ah kok, my cousin was here wif me..but its not the same..the room belongs to us...but...i jus cant suit it!!...the room is not for me only...haiihhh

i wish i can turn back the time...stop it right there and u will b here again..with me all the time...dinner together, take our nap together, bullshit with each other...tis is a test for us...i know we can overcome it 4 sure!!..but..i jus cant face it all by myself...im totally a stranger to myself now...i dono who i am when ur not here wif me...mayb im too dependant...im writting tis blog at 2.24am-15th of aug...i hope u will stay by my side again...

i promise u ill take good care of myself...i wont let u wori bout me k??..i will keep my word...elwez remember the do's and dont's..haha..but i jus wan u to know..i miss u baby..im totally lost without u...i cant find myself...where am i??..u brought me home as well??...aihh...its getting late now...gonna sleep soon...n im gonna sleep 2nite all myself tonite..hope i can overcome the loneliness and sleep soundly without ur hug...finally..luv u elwez n miss ya...Huey Ling..